so i bought the patch two days ago, got the fake cigarette too....all that's going wrong is that i haven't worn a patch yet and instead of smoking the fake cigarette i smoke a real one....

i like the fact that in the end i just have to let it go; it's okay in a sense, no matter what happens, because it's all just part of life's trials. as the spice of my life says, our only certainty is uncertainty. we can never plan for the unknown, the "accidents" of life, the growth in which we cannot control. we are merely human. we make ( Read more... )

on the left side of my throat, i have a little achy sensation when i open my jaw big enough. i thought it was toncilitus...who knows maybe one day it will be, but the fact of the matter is that i am sitting here smoking a cigarette as i feel the sensation every time i inhale. wtf is that all about? i sit here wanting to be healthy, wanting to ( Read more... )

my only advice today would be to NOT give your child two last names. i have been living in a nightmare for the past 24 years. half of the things i am attached to think of me as legally as one name and the other half thinks of me as the name i use (which apparently is only half of my legal name). what kind of masterful disaster does this cause? ( Read more... )

i got a new ipod dock today. the donut looking one. the one i always wanted. the little things...make it big.

so much has changed and yet i am totally calm...content...and, well...happy.

i love my new place. i love my drive to work, the 8 hour day, and the drive home. i love my new walk-in closet. i love my new bathroom set, dressor, and bed side table. i love my new living room and my wireless internet. i love my papasan chair. i love my new mornings, making bagels and smoothies. i love the little hook next to the front door ( Read more... )

my last night in my home of 24 years. all that is left sitting is a bed and a few empty dressors....tomorrow is a new day...a new life entirely.

i'm happy.

that's all.

i used to use my printer everyday. multiple times a day. i used to have emails filling my inbox from students, faculty, and staff. i used to come home with more work to do than when i left in the morning. i used to wake up at 11 and go to bed at 3am ( Read more... )