Comments | flowerofwinter: Andrew

flowerofwinter

Andrew

Oct 24, 2006 16:26

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helenw October 24 2006, 08:10:24 UTC

i'm so sorry hun. it's so upsetting when you've lost a friend, even if you hadn't seen them in ages. i was a wreck after daniel died. but i see him in my dreams and i believe he's my spirit guide now. *warm hugs*

flowerofwinter October 27 2006, 13:37:41 UTC

Thank you for your comment Helen, you are a beautiful person.

I am glad you can find comfort with knowing Daniel is with you.

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flowerofwinter October 27 2006, 13:37:02 UTC

Thanks Brad!

Andrew and I were very close over summer and would catch up 2-3 times a week. I miss all the little things and the stupid teasing we did towards each other.

He was a top bloke and I am really struggling to believe he is gone. I think the funeral would have given me closure.

cougar_cowgirl October 24 2006, 14:37:53 UTC

I'm sorry. *hugs*

darkhawke October 27 2006, 20:06:20 UTC

You have my sympathies - a few years ago, a grandmother on a side of the family I have little contact with died of lung cancer, and I only learned because my father saw her obituary. I can certainly understand your pain. 8-(

Hopefully Oolong there in the icon can help a little?

flowerofwinter October 27 2006, 20:16:38 UTC

That is very sweet of you and Oolong.

Andrew and I shared some special moments and I will always cherish those.

My biggest struggle at the moment is feeling guilty for getting on with my life. I almost feel as though I owe it to him for everything to fall apart, but it's just not and I feel bad because of that. It sounds stupid I know.

Can I friend you?

darkhawke October 27 2006, 20:19:02 UTC

I don't think it sounds stupid at all - survivor's guilt is VERY hard to work through. My own version comes from my cousin telling me that my grandmother's last words were that she wished I were there.

Talk about a load of guilt to bear....

*hugs*

And as long as I can friend back, friend away!

flowerofwinter October 27 2006, 20:29:49 UTC

I didn't even know there was a term for it, I spose it makes sense. What a horrible burden for you to bear from your Grandmother's last words. I am sure the sentiment is nice though, that she loved you dearly, maybe it was her trying to reach out to your family to get in contact with you and they just ignored her plea.

Consider yourself friended then and I look forward to seeing your name on my list.

My shift finishes in 30 minutes!

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