Fuck that last post. I know I'm loved. This is my problem to deal with and I'm being a bitch about it and looking for problems. I can't believe that shit. I need sleep.

Okay, my mom's probably having a fling with my ex-step dad scott. This is just greeeeat. Exactly what I needed. If it's true and she takes him back, I'm either watching my sister or dad is. I will not put up with this woman who seems so insistent on proving that she's not an able mother. Scott is: Physically Abusive, Verbally Abusive, ( Read more... )

Lay beside me, tell me what they've done ( Read more... )

On vacation. Kind of. Everything I worried about in my last entry is fixed. I feel okay. No worries.

Yeah so she doesn't really seem interested in talking to me much these days. I'm pretty convinced that I've just been fucked again. I'm considering my old considerations. I'm tired of living like this...being so close to something special and then having them just walk away from me. I think maybe she'll be happy with whoever she ends up with ( Read more... )

Well yeah k I thought I'd be able to talk to someone and I was looking forward to it but they had to go five minutes after I called and the way we said goodbye really bothered me k bye.

Well, I appear to be a little bit better. I seriously doubt I got the job that I wanted, regardless of how hard I tried. My resume was damned near excellent, and I wrote a thankyou letter the very same day I was interviewed, but that's the flavor of life, that's my opposition. It's strange how life is, in actuality, a struggle now. Back when ( Read more... )

Woah, okay, I feel a lot better. More on that later.

Oh, grand. Renata sends me an email saying that if I move to São Paulo or Brasília that she'd be "very willing" to consider a relationship with me. She says she's "just noticed" how strongly I felt for her. Damn it. She should have come when I had the nerve to lay it down and tell her I liked her, 5 months ago. I vowed to be here for someone, ( Read more... )

In the distance ( Read more... )