I am disgusted with myself

[fluffmeister]

I just finished writing a letter to Dave, pouring my heart out to him. Listen to me carefully, because to most people this is initially going to sound counterproductive. This letter was a letter that cleared up misconceptions about how I've been behaving, and truths about Shane and I. No explicit details are given, they're not necessary, but I hope

Comments

[ben_chi]

I think that if you feel so strongly about it, then you need to have written the letter, and you need to give it to him. Relationships and their breakups or hardships are not the same for every people, and it's hard to always understand the way one person reacts to something they've gotten to experience. Sure we have outside perspective that's not as biased as your inside, but at the same time, we're wretchedly blind to the inner workings. I think it's really important for you to work through the things you're feeling with Dave. Either together with him, or on your own, or even with a therapist, but just to work them out regardless. Three and a half years is a very long time, and it's going to be a long time for you to untangle yourself from the relationship if that's ultimately what you decided to do. If you need someone to talk to, give me a call okay? Or come see me at work, or we can get together afterwards or even just talk on MSN. But I'm here to listen all the same, and offer what advice I can, and in lieu of that