it's like there's this awkward feeling that's always lingering when we're together. it's almost like he feels like this isn't what he wants. or that he's not totally sure. that makes me feel like crap. i show every piece of my heart to him. yet he hides most of his. :/ every time i say ANYTHING to him he automatically comes back on the defensive ( Read more... )

i am having a kegger here. at my house on st patties day. EVERYONE ATTEND. or die. k? THANKS :)

last night my boyfriend told me he was holding back from loving me to the fullest. that was a kick to my gut. i felt so helpless..like i was suddenly nothing to him. i am so in love with jason. i would do anything for him. he thinks i try too hard. all i want to do is love him. it sucks..cause he's in my head constantly. he's who i want to be with ( Read more... )

today was absolutly amazing. i spent the night at jason's again. we had a party last night. a bunch of ppl actually showed up. it was awesome. sean made it! all the way from ypsi. it was sweet. jaimie, erika, jeff, his friend danielle, d, and reed were there. good times good times. i woke up this morning and jason and i had to clean up his house. ( Read more... )

well work pretty much runs my life now. i schedule everything around it. when to party..when to go to school..when to hang out..when to sleep. lol ugh. work was SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO slow today. i worked on the 7th floor of the hospital. i call it the "death" floor. cause it smells so incredibly bad. i can't wait till Select Specialty bails this ( Read more... )

well yeah..it's been a long time since i've updated. my birthday to be exact. i've been working like crazy really. but it's all good. i gotta get money to get out of this house. i've also been spending a lot of time with jason. he's such an amazing guy. i want to be with him all the time. i want to tell him i love him every second of the day. but i ( Read more... )

I LOVE JASON ANDREW WALLS.

always and forever babe..

it's my birthday today. and i had to work. it was AWESOME. no..it really was. i didn't do anything and got pAid. my mom got me care bears birthday hats. yes...i know i'm 20 but so what. and she got me a care bear cake. she rocks. going to canada since i'm 365 days too young to drink here. adios

so i messed up my livejournal. and i absolutly NOTHING about html. so if someone knows what they're doing..please help me. i'd appreciate that a lot.

my eyes burn....with tears...

it's the story of my fucking life. the end.