Veronica and I laughed. At the emptiness of the restaurant that became rapidly quite full, at the expense of others, at the Ajax all over our smocks and the muck from the counters embedded into our palms ( Read more... )

I'm about ready to lose it. And I haven't yet found a decent therapist. When it comes to the point that I'm writing letters I hope never to send, or I'm crying in front of people who've never seen me cry, or hoping to get the day off of work so that I can sleep the hours by ... that's when there's a problem.

I hate jealousy. I always feel it. This is how I can tell the Celexa hasn't worked it's best. I know it won't erase feelings, but it should alleviate irrational jealousy.

Okay finneeee, we're seeing "V for Vendetta" tomorrow (Stephy & I). Everyone on the planet has suggested I see it. Okay well three people, but that might as well be everyone on the planet ( Read more... )

Er ... I've gone and fucked it up again. And I hate being my own psychoanalyst, because it's hard to discern psychological truths from reasoned bullshit ( Read more... )

Advanced Global Personality Test Results
Extraversion |||||||||||||||||| 73% Stability |||| 16% Orderliness |||||||||||| 50% Accommodation |||||||||||| 50% Interdependence |||||||||||||||| 70% Intellectual |||||||||||||||||||| 83% Mystical |||||||||||||||||| 76% Artistic |||||||||||||||||||| 83% Religious |||||||||| 36% ( Read more... )

I feel like typing, so I apologise for a potentially pointless entry ahead of time ( Read more... )

Also -

Chaya and I walked to Giovanni's from my house today right as the huge rain/hail storm hit. My bag and coat are both still soaked. Nick hung my socks over the oven to dry them. I killed about eighty trees, drying my pants off with napkins. It was awful.
I was uber-made fun of.

Good times?

I made a phone call last night, and for some reason was completely overwhelmed with emotion. The funny thing is, I felt like how I did before I started taking medication (physically), however my mind was in a different place. I was wondering why I was crying. At one point I began to rattle off my own self psychoevaluation, and at points I literally ( Read more... )

Hmm, having quite a time thinking over and over where I am in my life right now, and what I want. Who am I? What am I like? Am I simple? Am I complex? I've been hit with a ton of bricks, so to speak. Too much has been tossed at me at once, all involving the same basic idea. So now I have to sit and think about what's prudent, what's necissary, what ( Read more... )