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[focuscroakusd]

Post anything that you want here, and post it anonymously. A story, a secret, a confession, a fear, a love... anything. Make sure to post anonymously and honestly. Post as many times as you'd like. Then, put this in your LJ to see what others have to say.

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[anonymous]

I look up to you so much...You're someone of real substance to me, because you aren't afraid to show that you feel, and you made me feel ok about not being perfect either, even when you saw what I do to my arms...I think you know who this is. Thanks for being so awesome to me, even though I'm just a freshman...

[focuscroakusd]

i love you.
its gonna b okay.

[anonymous]

a few of my friends consistently make me feel horrible about myself. and even though i can recognize this, when i simply try to keep my distance without doing anything to cause a problem, they prod and push me toward a confrontation. plus, everyone i try to talk to about it tells me it's important to make up with them or forgive them, when i'm not sure that they're worth being friends with if they're so cruel to me. every time i spend time with them it works out the same, i tell myself that i won't put myself through it again, and then it happens again when i forget.

i'm so scared because i think i love more than i am loved. but i don't show it always when i need to.

i'm insecure.

[anonymous]

its funny my old best friend literally feels thesame way about me! heliterally feels that im a problem to him and that i always want tot cause confrontation even though its just the opposite! What i would o is just try and forgive and forget life is way too short to be worrying about fights and arguments

[anonymous]

a year ago almost exactly, i was raped too. but the thing that sux is no one understands that it was rape. in fact - when the case is usually that the person that was raped takes blame for it...i feel like my friends are putting the blame on me, not myself. and that just really hurts. no one understands, except for one other person. and i love him more than anything.
if any of you ever have sex with a guy friend, even if hes supposed to be your best guy friend..and whether you were drunk or not...if you said no, or didnt say yes, or in my case-were crying the whole time and trying not to pass out-handle it better than me. make that guy suffer and don't let him get away with it. don't blame it on yourself. and i can't tell you not to become depressed becuz thats just not possible. DONT LET HIM GET OFF THE HOOK. i hate him. i hate him. and i hate the parts of my friends who werent there.

[anonymous]

i'm the above poster.

check out rainn.org- it helped a friend of mine a lot.

also, i understand your pain...because for the longest time, i thought it was my fault. some days, i still think it's my fault. sure, i squirmed and bit and said "no," but at the same time, there were two attempts by other people before him, and some days, i think that maybe i'm just the type of girl who deserves it. i don't really wear revealing clothes, and i'm not much of a tease, but maybe it's an innate thing. most days, i know that's not true. we didn't ask for it and we didn't deserve it.

be careful though. i tried to hold the guy accountable- not by police action or anything, just called him on the phone. and now, i get telephone calls from him weekly. taunting me. not allowing me to move on.

sometimes, you just have to move on and leave it all behind. check out rainn.org; it's helped others do just that.

[anonymous]

hey...you're not the type of girl who deserves it. although i don't know who you are, NO girl deserves it.
the thing is, my situation was different than yours. it was my best guy friend who did it, and we had been hooking up prevoiusly, but only like, innocently. i had always had the dream of staying a virgin for as long as possible, i was in no rush at all, and i raelly would have even likd to stay a virgin until marriage. adn thats another reason why my situation was so hard for me. it was my first time, something that meant a LOT to me, and now something...that can't mean anything at all. but luckily i've found someone who can help me through that.
i'm sorry about what happend to you:( please know you're not the type of girl who deserves it, no one does.

[anonymous]

its been 3 months since the last time i cut. and sometimes i really just want to do it again. even though i've been really happy lately and seemed to have pulled up from my depression. why is that? why do i still want to do that to myself? cutting to me always meant relief, and was felt like the only thing that kept me alive. if you're a cutter too, you'll understand that. if you're not, you'll think its crazy perhaps.
but sometimes i miss it, just because it was a point in my life that will have the most meaning.
i just know i can't do it because i'm afraid of losing the ones i love, and i know if i were to break my promises and do it again...it wouldn't just be once. it would be a nother cycle and i would have to deal with other people, even though i wish it could just be my thing and no one ever know.
why would i ever want to continue something that does this to me?

[anonymous]

sometimes i wish i cut myself. just to have power over my life. just to have relief from everything. i almost did..once. something stopped me from doing it though. part of me doesnt want to hurt my friends. to not break the promise i made. part of me just wants to be myself and do my own thing but i know hurting myself wont solve anything. but maybe it will i dont know everything is so confusing.

[anonymous]

i posted the one before yours, about cutting. and if you haven't alreayd cut, please..do whatever you can in your willpower not to. as you do it, it feels like the best thing for you at the time. but its NOT because it will hurt you're friends, you emotionally, and become addictive. a moment of pleasure isn't worth a lifetime of pain. please, it's not a good idea.