Uggghhh
I feel awful. Empty inside. I can't sleep well or eat. I mean i don't have much of an appetite, i didn't eat all day Sunday and ate half my lunch at work yesterday, and yeah i just iam soo going through the motions at work and with everything.
It's all bc of him, i could sense something wasn't right, no wonder i felt so out of place before. Well i ( Read more... )
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Well Iam glad you replied. And yeah i agree i know, i was just thinking it. I think i was trying to amuse myself with the idea to make myself feel better, i mean it would be ridiculous to actually do that, it be like totally foolish. I just think that way when iam a total emotional mess. I really hope i don't do it, even though now that i've thought of it it's tempting damn it. But yeah he wouldn't change or leave her just cause i'd come back, yeah right, even if i was to promise that i'd be more available. I know deep down that it wouldn't change a thing, unless he wanted sex and lied again that he did leave her. I mean once a cheater always a cheater. He doesn't even realize what he did to me, iam a wreck, emotionally and physically. So yeah do i want to go back to that, to someone who has hurt me this much, i think not. All i could gain from the outcome is prolly just maybe manage to make her think that he left her if she called and i was with him, which would put her in my shoes. And i had the chance to do that so many times too, ( ... )
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