It seems to me people aren't updating as often as I would like...

[fop_jesus]

I think I'm getting semi-depressed. I mean, how else can I feel alone in a house full of people? Day to day passes by pretty well, but when I'm alone I feel, for the lack of something wittier to say, very alone. In that sense, I feel like I go from a naive optimist to a jaded cynic in a period of about 3 nanoseconds every damn day. It's a

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[king_of_natar]

As far as depression goes, it's not a subject I think I can converse with you about over Livejournal, simply because of the number of comments and comments to comments it would take. We could talk in person next time we meet.

Diet Pepsi > Pepsi. For real. Of course, I bet both give the "cleaning out", so this fact probably doesn't help.

Your paragraph about staying here for up to another year sounds eerily similar to my story. I was planning for a while to go to Pensacola in the fall, but figured that it was a stupid idea. The only thing I'd gain is more freedom, which I don't really need yet anyway (I get enough free reign at home as is), at the price of paying all my bills, doing all my shopping, and living in a small room on campus, either by myself or with someone who does dope or watches "Days of Our Lives" (or both, since the two probably go hand in hand). So yeah, I decided that staying at home > Pensacola, if only for a while.

[secretlie]

I do not mean for this to sound offensive in ANY way, but even mentioning substance abuse and promiscuity is too close for comfort, considering.

Ever heard of schizoaffective disorder? I think it's a very interesting and relatively unpublicised manifestation, that like many others, may bring you some insight into your feeling's origin, or just comfort in it's non-origin.

I'd like to agree with Porter, that your problem is just due to a lack of a woman who's dedicated to making your gnostic self shout out to God and sobriety, but I'm sure every man can't be as lucky as himself.