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The only thing I'm upset about is that he left like this. Was I being optimistic and hoping he would forgive me? Even if I do find out the answer it doesn't matter now. I can't help but wonder why I keep on making these decisions. I know they were right but the results say otherwise. Is it right of me to continue making these kind of decisions knowing the end might not be as good as I know it is?
I was afraid of telling him what I really thought and felt. That was wrong of me, wasn't it? I keep losing myself in disillusions. If only there was a way to safe guard yourself from making foolish mistakes after you've grown and learnt things.
If I think on these things and accept my mistakes now at least I know I won't make the same mistake again. I can't afford to hurt anyone anymore.
The weather looks bad outside. Is there a storm?