I didn't recieve the grant to go study in Japan this summer.
I'm an alternate for the program, so there is still a chance I'll get it, but it's still incredibly disappointing. I was genuinely looking forward to it and I really thought I had a chance to get it.
When I got the job here, it was January 2010 and I was told that there were no places available in March (the date of the main intake), so I was going to start in August.
Fast forward a couple of weeks and they called me to ask if I could get everything sorted to move to Japan in four weeks. People had dropped out, or they'd found more places, so they had a space for me.
I know it's not quite the same situation, but it's proof that an initial "no" or "not now" can turn into a "um, when can you start?"
I'm sure there were a lot of applications so even being an alternate is an achievement. Don't think that it isn't. Like you say in your entry, if it doesn't happen for you this time, then you will make it happen some other time.
And there's always a futon and floor space at mine if you simply fancy a few days holiday XD
stop fooling yourself, dear. You are punishing yourself with living in a state of not feeling content by what I read here. You are wonderful. A wonderful person who can get passionate and give love to people. You have a wonderful taste for written words. Let nobody ever tell you your not good enough already NOW. Not even by yourself. You are already complete. NOW. In this very moment.
You may say I don't know you. True, I barely have a clue who you are, but from the tiny little bit I see from you, you've got heaps of potential. You can lead a happy life and maybe you already are. I hope so, because you deserve it.
If you get to feel it deep down - that you are already there - then every step towards enriching your life and personality from that moment on will be taken naturally and easily. Whatever you get better in, whatever you learn, it's just an add-on to the wonderful person you already are.
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I love people who keep trying and pick themselves up after stumbling, over and over. To me, they shine so bright already.
Yes, you will, my dear.
Yes, you will.
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I'm an alternate for the program, so there is still a chance I'll get it, but it's still incredibly disappointing. I was genuinely looking forward to it and I really thought I had a chance to get it.
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Fast forward a couple of weeks and they called me to ask if I could get everything sorted to move to Japan in four weeks. People had dropped out, or they'd found more places, so they had a space for me.
I know it's not quite the same situation, but it's proof that an initial "no" or "not now" can turn into a "um, when can you start?"
I'm sure there were a lot of applications so even being an alternate is an achievement. Don't think that it isn't. Like you say in your entry, if it doesn't happen for you this time, then you will make it happen some other time.
And there's always a futon and floor space at mine if you simply fancy a few days holiday XD
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Hey,....
stop fooling yourself, dear. You are punishing yourself with living in a state of not feeling content by what I read here. You are wonderful. A wonderful person who can get passionate and give love to people. You have a wonderful taste for written words. Let nobody ever tell you your not good enough already NOW. Not even by yourself. You are already complete. NOW. In this very moment.
You may say I don't know you. True, I barely have a clue who you are, but from the tiny little bit I see from you, you've got heaps of potential. You can lead a happy life and maybe you already are. I hope so, because you deserve it.
If you get to feel it deep down - that you are already there - then every step towards enriching your life and personality from that moment on will be taken naturally and easily. Whatever you get better in, whatever you learn, it's just an add-on to the wonderful person you already are.
Take care.
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