Ah, the night

[for_the_fiya]

My refuge, my place to reassess, rebuild, plan, scheme, hope, and wonder. Classes start tomorrow for University of Oregon and Lane Community College Students. The house is quiet save a girl living above me who has been moving things about for hours. Beautiful Jazz playing, Booker Ervin, something so genuinely expressive and real about it, its

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[xseitanistx]

These ladies are missing out.

[for_the_fiya]

sigh, if only they knew it!

It seems I just need to do other things I enjoy and not seek the intimacy I want, to keep sane and happy, which is what I've been doing for a while now anyway.

[xseitanistx]

Yes, that is smart. But also, no one can blame you for wanting some affection.

[for_the_fiya]

yea, its survival. I get frustrated often in feeling I don't know how or don't feel able to get affection.

[elperdido]

word.

adage: the only thing worse than living with women is living without them. personally, i find it hard to live without beautiful women. they are literally our future (our in the humanity as a whole sense, not men).

c'mon man, just be like popeye. "i yam what i yam." if youse you, the who ever is into you is into you.
but then again "all that i have learned in love is how to shoot someone who outdrew ya."
at least this girl is being honestly disinterested and not leading you on.

P. M. A. dreddy!

[for_the_fiya]

good point.

I mean yea, my LJ posts are usually when my usual confidence in things and in myself wears thin, just a vignette of my mental struggle.

Well, she certainly seems disinterested but it doesn't really strike me as honest. Maybe its just hard to be on this end of things again.

PMA for the win!

yarg, I love my hair but feel like I'm being associated with a culture/lifestyle I'm not apart of at all.

[a_dissertation]

I've taken a vow of silence.
I only write notes.