I swear to god I am perpetually high these days, what with being around paint fumes from 7-5. But at $18 per hour I'll take permanent brain damage any day. Rock on summer job ( Read more... )

Whew! So finally we're out of high school, prom, graduation, and senior trip have all gone by. It's a crazy thought, but slowly sinking in. Amy left for NH yesterday and after I dropped her off on Monday I cried the entire ride home, though it hasn't really sunk in that I won't be seeing her all summer. I cry a lot actually, and as of late most of ( Read more... )

Life has been so upside down lately I'm just beginning to get my feet on the ground again and tip myself right side up. I'll spare the details, but I remain both physically and mentally exhausted. Dance finally wrapped up after a stressful week of rehearsals and performances. All in all I'm a little depressed but content. I am officially going to ( Read more... )

Today you asked to talk with me for awhile, to ask a few questions and gage my reactions and answers. Stupidly I agreed, eager to get it done with and have you move on. And then I stood there, listening to the low sound of your voice and the words that barely slipped by to form a question. It couldn't have hurt me more than if you had spewed them ( Read more... )

I'll just sit with my dazed smile as everything progresses from bad to worse and wonder at what point it all spun out of my control. Look close and you might see a dull gleam of desperation in my eyes as I blink slowly, or brushed on color in my cheeks and the paleness underneath. Let me keep my illusions and I'll continue to wear my painted on ( Read more... )

snow day <3

Sometimes I just feel like a completely different person, stretching out my skin, widening my smile as well as deepening my frown, darkening my hair, straightening my teeth, growing out my nails, changing and growing and learning and laughing and crying and singing and dancing and becoming. I look into the mirror, expecting to see a strange face ( Read more... )

Trainspotting (Choose life. Choose a job. Choose a starter home. Choose dental insurance, leisure wear and matching luggage. Choose your future. But why would anyone want to do a thing like that?)

Snatch (Stealin' Stones and Breakin' Bones)

Magnolia (Things fall down. People look up. And when it rains, it pours ( Read more... )

gah. feeling sick as a dog today ( Read more... )

How many people look for love? In malls and cafes, behind windows and doors, in every crack they come upon, searching for any morsel of it that can snatch up in their greedy little paws. You again. You of course. You, hopefully not always ( Read more... )