wharrgarbl agh i hate you so much stupid brain graaaaaaaaaaah

Fuck it, I'm cutting.

I know I've mentioned this before, but being the good listener for people you're interested in as they work through their problems with someone they're interested in is a special level of hell.

I wish I was as fine as they think I am.

Fucked it all up again! Fucking wonderful job I'm doing on my life, innit?

Godsbefuckingdamned, how do I keep meeting awesome women who can't date me for some reason or another?!

The fear is stronger than I am.

3 hours of waiting, 15 minutes of paperwork, another meeting scheduled for Thursday. Full assessment then, two hours or so.

Tomorrow at 8. I just have to make it till then. One more night.

Well, damnit. I cut too much and now I'm going to have problems covering it with a short-sleeved shirt. Stupid mistake. makes it harder to get myself out of the house. Embarrassment, anger, shame. I'm going to have to push myself to call the counseling center as soon as they open this morning, because I'm off for the next two days, and the longer I ( Read more... )