What Terrifies Me

[forceworks]

The greatest terror I know is losing control.

To rage like a Californian forest fire.

To rush like a Tsunami.

To howl like Katrina.

To shake the world like a quake...
...and not care for the results of my actions.

To strike out at another without care,
Forgoing my caring and compassion in the heat of anger.

That is what terrifies me.

Comments

[40sw]

thank you. this is great! and wonderful imagery.

(I have a very strong bias towards short and powerful over long rambling stories when it comes to text.)

[twystedpixie]

Aw...fuck. :(

[lordrexfear]

Okay, now I have to actually add you.

That was brilliant.

[twystedpixie]

I realized from a young age that because I am so good at seeing right through people and reading the heart of them, I was also good at being able to cut to the quick. When roused in the past, I have...I have said things that...well. I've burned a lot of bridges. I'm always aware of that capacity for me to be instinctively cruel...and it scares me so deeply.

[boundfate]

This is one of my favorite fears to play with in people who allow me to - I love being that first person to allow them to lose control and bring them out the other side to that wonder of "wow - I lost control and didn't do anything unforgivable." It helps that I'm a masochist. ;)

The only bad part of doing that is learning how to accept yourself when you find the bottom of your dark - I'm still working on acceptance of my sadistic streak which is ironic given how much support I try to provide for others in accepting theirs.

Point being, great entry and I hope that you are given the chance to face this fear and believe in your own control. (Way easier said than done.)

[minikin]

Okay, so your entry is so much more succinct and to the point about what is also my fear.

Thank you for this!