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well idk i've changed alot since school started and i admit i talk ALOT of shit and i'm honestly trying my best to quit that and today i just tottaly stuck my foot in my mouth it wasent even nessesary i said something about someones family i didnt even mean to make it come out the way it did i was actualy like i always am thinking in spanish and it didnt sound bad but when i blurted it out my freind got pissed off and i dont blame her and i feel like such an asshole idk why i do this it seems that my family does it alot and it pisses me off but i do it more sometimes i judge ppl on stuff on everything and i'm trying realy realy hard to stop i've lost a ton of freinds just because of my big fuckin mouth sometimes because i dont say anything other times because i blurt out the wrong thing idk how to appologize but i'm gonna try i feel so shitty for what i did i quit drinking and smoking and skipping and alot of stuff i dont mean to be like a super goody good but i want to change lately i think i've been doing well i keep up with what i say so that later on i dont forget idk i feel like all my freinds from last yr changed and we dont realy have anything to talk about i talk to julia and katy and a bunch of ppl younger than me idk i'm learning to keep my mouth shut i even try not to cus but its a bad habbit i'm talking to everyone no matter how getto or weird i might think they are it sounds gay but idk i'm tired of being an asshole ppl who like to hear me talk shit never end up being my long term freinds idk in good news i'm going on a retreat its gonna b fun hopefully and i'm gonna chill with all these young bloods and some like 20yr olds including cory vega i think idk but i figure that if i'm gonna b catholic i might as well follow the rules and quit being a hypocrit so i try not to do alot of stuff anymore idk but these are my new freinds brian and mark i know theyre older brothers but i'm not realy freinds with them i can talk to them alot they always hold me back from saying mean stuff or judging i heart them alot right now hopefully for a long time the only person i realy talk to from last yr is katy and sometimes cat smith my long haired blondy's
i wanted sunglasses 2:(
well this is my new freind i purdy much hang out with him every week my eyes look freeky but yeah he's purdy cool gues who he's related 2 damn it i just found out 2 day and i couldent believe it i hate that theres like 2 ppl who i always hang around with just bcause i cant tell who they look like but i know that they look like some one but yeah he's my briany freind and we chill at church and sometimes after school
and this is marc and my freind that i call sancha they take good pikture well anyway i've pretty much been hanging around these cheif's at church theyre realy cool they tell me all the stuff going on with theyre brothers and theyre gf's and who they like and stuff and i think i might like a girl but idk i might tell them i feel like i can trust them i never tell anyone who i like but idk i havent liked anyone in a looooong time and i hope this chick is cool she seems 2 b no one knows her but idk idk idk hopefully i'll be freinds with these kiddo's 4 a long time