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[foreignseas]

things have been incredibly shitty

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[teethguard]

i could have written this.

[foreignseas]

i am truly so sad inside.
i hate the fact that you feel any way that remotely relates to how i feel.
no one should have to feel like this at all.

[_skiptown_]

oh manny have I been there! I don't know you in real life but it sounds like you need a giant change. If there is something you know you want then chase it! don't doubt anything, listen to your instinct and everything will absolutely work out. Meditation can help you tune in, although I have trouble shutting off my left brain so often slack in that department. I'm working on actively observing the ego, you know the ego- that little parasitic monster guy that says you are not real or great or worthy, and judges others and makes you resent people you love? Isn't that weird that the two halves of our brains seem to be battling all the time? If what you are experiencing right now is anything similar to what I've been going through, don't worry. You're probably waking up to the truth. We're living in a very intense age, and those of us who are sensitive to energies are rightfully flipping out. Try to resonate on a higher frequency by listening to music or getting inspired. You will totally attract awesome shit into your life and the

[foreignseas]

the majority of my problem is that i do need a big change. i'm not sure if i need a big change in scenery as much as a change in my thinking/perspective.
it just really hurts because i felt this exact same way last winter, and after this summer, i felt better like i solved something, but then it crept back in again around october, and it feels like this type of feeling will never go away. i probably should be on medication again, but i don't know how i really feel about that. it does help me focus, but i feel like it's something i depend on, and a lot of the side effects kill me.

when i was in school, i was "gifted," and my gifted teacher (who i had a close relationship to, but we never got a long, if that makes any sense?) sent me an article about gifted adults and how hard it is for them to adjust to the adult world due to sensitivity, natural curiosity, etc. lately, that's been dead on. i just think that i need to really, really, really think about what makes me happy, and what exactly i want out of life, which is hard and

[_skiptown_]

I was considering going on meds about a month ago, and then things started to click. Have you looked into the whole 'indigo' thing? If you look it up you will probably recognize a lot of your own traits described. It seems weird at first, but if you think about it just about all the psych disorders common to our generation can be attributed. I find it to be a much more empowering term than ADD or bipolar, and it automatically gives me a sense of ease about my general inability to function within the current society. Even though it sounds a bit hippie dippie, it makes me feel pretty awesome to know that I might be part of something bigger. Check out Kelly Jones' videos on youtube.. a lot of what she says is kinda out there but a lot of it is totally rad. Her channel is kellysjones
keep your head up!
xo

[restingstate]

I'm just the same. Wish I had some advise but to be honest, my way of dealing with stress is pushing people away and spending all my free time alone.

[foreignseas]

at least your way of dealing with stress isn't moving across the country.

[stolencompass]

thats fantastic.
fantastic because you know it, its starting to itch away at you until you MUST act, and the action is beautiful, or close enough..regardless of whatever ugliness surrounds it.

[foreignseas]

i just don't know how to act.

[stolencompass]

make a list of things that make you happy and a list of what you do now.
then, do everything you can to go towards that first list, even if it means setting flames to what you have now.