I never knew that not seeing or hearing from you in merely 2 days could cause such lonliness... might sound pathetic babe but i love you so damn much and i really don't care what others say, i do want to spend my life with you. Not being with many others the way i am with you, doesnt mean i don't know how i feel. it's indescribable, but when i am ( Read more... )

Wow, it has been a while since i wrote in this thing and I think the reason for that it that i have been happy, busy and generally haven't had much time to think of bad things. It's been great!

This w/e has been good. Taran came down on Friday night and we just had a bumming night, watching the Truman Show. Saturday was spent sleeping by the both ( Read more... )

There is a very thin line between friend and enemy and many people can walk this thin line. But how do I distinguish it? I  don't. I attempt to live life as much as i used to hate the one i have.
Good friends are hard to find but i have managed to find a few...  and this has helped me see that being depressed and pissed off at absolutely everything ( Read more... )

Firstly I don't think you are a fake friend Ash. You have been one of the most genuine friends i have ever had and i am in your debt for the things you have done for me. You came through for me when i needed you most... you dont know what that means to me...

i know that i said that i felt ditched by you and Liz but i DO understand that you guys ( Read more... )

Why is it that I feel like this person who is on the outside looking in at my friends at a party that i wasn't invited to?

Today i felt like a complete outcast. Liz, Ash and Sam were having a great old chat in Studio today and i just sat by myself, mainly because i didnt want to make them feel like i was cramping their style or anything. I was ( Read more... )

Today was the first day back of school... bummer... it was too cold and i was too tired to get out of bed this morning, but like a good girl I did and went off to school.

Once at school I felt really good after giving Mandy a present (a stuffed toy of Bubbles from Finding Nemo). She loved it and it cheered her up which gave a good perspective on ( Read more... )

THIS APOLOGY GOES OUT TO EVERYONE... I AM SORRY I HAVE EVER TREATED YOU LIKE SHIT OR MADE YOU FEEL LIKE YOU ARE WORTHLESS... EVERY PERSON I KNOW HOLDS A PLACE IN MY HEART EVEN IF I DON'T SHOW IT... SORRY....

AHHH it's so hot here... the girls are at the island... a place that i didnt get invited to :( i would lvoe to go to the beach today... wish i could drive...

i cant be bothered writing anymore stuff... except... i love the people closest to me who know who they are.

My Mind Is Laughing At Me... fitting no?

lol, things are picking up here, finally... things may be back on track... but then again who knows... i think for now i will just go with the flow... take things as they come and chill out...

well, this is short but sweet and happy...

take care guys.

I have been disappointed by to 2 people i hold dearly... these ppl did something that 1 swore they were off and the other swore would never touch... HOW HARD IS IT TO KEEP A PROMISE TARAN???

last nite i was left to "look after" ash's house whilst she went off after her bf who left. Her lil sister was off doing sumthing else... leaving me to watch ( Read more... )