mid-year
Oh well, it's 2nd half of the year.
I wish I'm more of ๐๐๐ but now I'm more of ๐๐ฉ๐
I didn't want to eat lunch.
Decided to do lunch at 2pm in the end and spend time thinking...
Prior to tt I went to thk & offer incense.
N ended up i went to a cafe nxt to it and I'm gg to eat nw.
Ate the sandwiches in 5min ๐๐ comfort food for me. Otah sandwich ๐
Tt drink is teh c special which I'm drinking now while typing.
Why?
I'm definitely too stressed. Judging from my refusal to sleep, waking before alarm, too much gastric juices.
It's not just work but also study stress.
Stress to complete study by end of the yr. ๐ฃ
That I know.
But what about work?
Work... anything changed? There isn't anything new since 2016 started
I know this period is a busy one. Because of tt?
Definitely not due to AR. Maybe due to CL? I don't know.
Due to JL? Hmmmm... it's not the first day, it has been over a yr.
Due to promotion? Maybe? Since he came in later but we weren't on the same starting point to begin with and there's nothing to compare.
Due to the current stagnant situation? After working for 5 yrs, perhaps I hoped tt I'm not where I am right now? But I alr decided tt I'm gg to give myself 2 more yrs.
I think I know why...
I feel that I'm letting myself down by not living my life to the fullest.
My life is boring as hell and I really want some excitements. Which explains why I still did calligraphy yesterday at midnight. Did for 15min & I felt better.
My life deserves better.
My body deserves better.
And that's why... I feel so suffocated.
& so change it shall.
I didn't have any idea yet... but probably it involves trying something new. ๐
Probably not the time to think because I have an assignment due nxt wk but if I don't do tt, i can't move on.
On a side note...
At the cafe, I ordered teh o peng & changed my order subsequently. After I paid, I realised the bill was wrong and I was thinking "oh well, I will just drink teh o peng". So my buzzer rang and a teh c special was waiting for me. I wanted to pay for the difference but the owner (assume she is) said it's alright.
Thank you for making my day.
2nd half of 2016 didn't start off v well but I'm sure it will be good.
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