Unrequited love
What is this crazy feeling I have.
..I never truly unsderstood the term unrequited love till now. Am I way too giving maybe? I want to feel like I'm being loved. The fact my emotions are more on the negative side might be a good indication that I'm just not getting the emotional support Or even getting my emotional needs fulfilled. When is it gone to tell your boyfriend they're bad? Is that appropriate? I have no idea but I do know I want to tell him right now...it's almost 2am and I want to text him and lay it on to him how much I'm feeling. I now I'm impulsive and I tend to react quickly. I hate feeling so much angst and all this anxiety. It causes me to act out in so many ways that probably aren't healthy. I tend to look anywhere to distract. I use to think gambling and drinking was a way to stop focusing on these thoughts. It's bullshit I feel unwanted or like I'm not getting the attention I need.
It's not healthy that most of my thoughts are about how I can make his life easier or what I can do for him when I don't feel like it's the same. Hmmm...interesting revelations or unsaid words definitely are helping me shape my next actions.