Comments | forget_me_not46: life: a long series of good-byes

forget_me_not46

life: a long series of good-byes

Apr 01, 2007 14:00

as strange as it seems i still have the internet although i'm not "living" here anymore...it's a long story. outside my window people are bbq-ing, playing frisbee, beating drums, taking a nap on the daisies. i'd like to go outside but i'm hesitant because i don't have a key to get back in. however, it's beautiful weather and it's nice to watch ( Read more... )

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Feel like a nerd for commenting on your every post lately... shelby_nevis April 1 2007, 18:51:12 UTC

This stuff is gold, Gretch. I'm printing it off and keeping it. Are you coming home very soon then? I remember it's sometime in April...

please don't feel like a nerd; i love it! forget_me_not46 April 1 2007, 21:03:50 UTC

yep, pretty soon: April 12 to be exact. maybe we'll see each other the following Sunday (April 15) if you don't have to work or whatever.

i'm glad you liked the post. upon further reflection i thought what i wrote was kind of depressing. a brother at church reminded me today about having our identity only in God. that's really true but sometimes it's not how i feel. yeah, i guess it's a temptation to look at ourselves too much and focus on these superficial details that aren't really important in the grand scheme of things. i know i need to focus on being in God's Kingdom, which is what really lasts. please pray for me that i can concentrate on what's important!

Re: please don't feel like a nerd; i love it! shelby_nevis April 2 2007, 00:46:34 UTC

I didn't read your post as depressing. I love your writing style and trying to figure out the concept of "home" is something I can totally relate to. And I like that you aren't afraid to ask hard questions. I think God is more than ok with our questions. Yes, he himself is the answer to all of our questions, but we still have to figure out how it will practically play out in our lives. If my true sense of home is in God's presence, how do I live like that's so? How do I overcome feelings of disconnection and lonliness? How can I feel "at home" where ever I go? At times are there lessons to be learned from feeling "not at home ( ... )

Re: please don't feel like a nerd; i love it! forget_me_not46 April 2 2007, 17:32:09 UTC

thanks meg! i appreciate the prayers! yeah, being an onlooker can suck sometimes. but every now and then it's healthy or even amusing! healthy because you start to reflect on your own relationships and priorities. amusing because you can watch other people being awkward instead of yourself (i'm so mean). yeah, solitude-lonliness can either make you appreciate people more or make you withdraw further to hide from pain. i praise God that-through His Providence alone-my 'isolation' has led me to the former rather than the latter attitude. and sometimes i do feel called to serve, among others, the window-dwellers and the lonely. society has a nasty habit of pushing people through the cracks. in a way i think all christians are called to be there for those people ( ... )

moriah_14 April 1 2007, 19:50:29 UTC

Life is like the picnic. Great. I miss you. You can always come and lie on my blanket. I'll gladly have a bbq with you. Miss you and can't wait for you to get back.

forget_me_not46 April 1 2007, 21:05:00 UTC

awhh...i'd love to come and sit on your blanket! let's just hope the ants don't get us~

i miss you too!

ophelia_85 April 2 2007, 00:29:10 UTC

Once you know the flavor of all those other languages and places, you notice the flavors and textures back home more strongly. I think. I hope.

forget_me_not46 April 2 2007, 07:56:03 UTC

hmm...i hope so, too. what does ypsi taste like again? i forget.

ophelia_85 April 2 2007, 12:52:20 UTC

Coffee with sugar and cream and sometimes Blonde Beer from the Corner. :)

abbistuff April 2 2007, 06:04:45 UTC

Gretchen, I want to break into applause! Applause so loud that you can hear it all the way in Germany. That was such a fantastic read. I was mildly distracted by LJ, but planned on disentangling myself. I was caught by your post like a fly in a web! You are a fantastic "spinster." Seriously. So is Meg, I also like what she had to say and how she said it. I am fo sho going to print this out too. In fact, I am going to have my English professor read it. I think she would enjoy it. Your writing is the kind of thing she's been trying to get out of us all semester. She's all about thinking original thoughts and writing a paper that will leave the the reader with more questions instead of a resolved issue. I've been to poetry and prose readings for this class, and at the moment I was just trying to squeeze a paper out of my dry dry brain. TRYING to think deep thoughts just doesn't work for me. You, however, wrote a compelling and thought provoking piece of beauty here and I could go on for pages about it! See! You've got me writing now. You ( ... )

doch! You have 'a beautiful mind'! forget_me_not46 April 2 2007, 08:46:42 UTC

abbey, it's so good to hear from you!!! i miss you too! Viel zu viel Zeit ohne Abbeychen ( ... )

laurza April 17 2007, 21:18:49 UTC

Gretchen, I want you to write here about your adventures in returning to germany then to america. I await your posts. love