Hollow
His blue eyes wavered; he sat on his bed and stared out the window… The way the rain hit glass was interesting. He found the strangest things to have significance. The shadows in the room crept towards him, they didn’t ask for his permission because it would not make a difference. The invisible streams of a deep black wavered around him, could he ever be safe from this?
Sora Amare Leonhart was his name, it mean loving winds with pride of a lion. He had thought it to be dull since birth, but recently found it ironic.
He did not have pride,
He was not free as wind,
And there was no way he could feel love.
His blue eyes sliced the shadow’s as a blond walked in his room, he didn’t speak to his brother, just looked back at the window. He knew Roxas would plop on his own bed that was across from his and do something that held no importance to him.
“Hey Soar.” His brother used the nickname he used since he could remember.
The brunet only looked out the window, he didn’t know why the blond tried to help him… his heart was numb as could be. Thoughts crossed his mind; the darkness was staying low, not wanting to be discovered by the blond. But it still crept near him, wrapping its arms around him, giving him comfort he needed.
Through the side of his vision he could see his brother look at him; he did not dare look back. “Sora…”
He blinked and watched the precipitation.
“Sora…” A soft sigh, “Sora.”
The brunet closed his eyes and forgot the blond was there, the darkness that lived with him gave him a comforting hug and he smiled.
“Sora!” The blond slammed his hand on his desk.
The sudden noise made the brunet shake in surprise.
“Sora I am tired of this shit!” His brother walked over to him and stared him in the eye, “You know mom is worried about you, we are too!”
“Worried about me…” The brunet sounded… surprised. “Why would you do that?”
He could see his brother, on the verge of tears and he wondered what he did. The blond pushed him on the bed and dug his head into his soft chest. “You’re so stupid!”
Sora felt odd, his older brother had shoved his blond hair on him and now… he felt wet tears on his shirt, “Why are you… crying?”
“Are you so fucking beyond help…?” Roxas dared look up at the brunet…
Sora’s widowed eyes were like two small shards of ice. They showed no emotion.
In contrast, Roxas’ were a deep blue, like the ocean. Something that made people like him a lot.
The brunet shifted when he felt something in his pants vibrate, he should have laughed at his brother’s shock but he was incapable. He dug into his pocket and pulled out his cell phone.
“Did you get a text or something?” The older one’s voice was a murmur.
“Yes.” The brunet was troubled by what was written on it, it wasn’t unexpected but he couldn’t understand it, shifting slightly his emotionless face tensed.
“Something wrong?”
“Roxas, why would you hurt yourself telling someone you love them when you know they can’t love you back?”
The question had surprised the blond.
The brunet struggled to get his older brother off, “I have to shower and get ready for bed.”
Roxas waited until he heard the water before he grabbed the cell phone. His eyes widened when he noticed the text was from his best friend, not only that but what was written on it…
“Sora I don’t care how much you think you can’t change… but I love you so I will try my best. I no you say you cant feel but I no deep down inside you do, and I will do whatever it takes, I don’t care if it hurts me, I care for you. ~Love; Riku”
The blond shivered a bit when he realised secrets where being kept from him, but he knew if Riku had told him before hand… the blond wouldn’t let the silver haired teen near his little brother.
With a sigh he went to Sora’s outbox and looked for his reply;
“I don’t understand you, pain will only follow… I could care less, do not think I care for you; simply your stupidity eludes me. Why would someone accept damage to themselves, running after fantasies…? I already told you, you can have my virginity if that’s what you want. Perhaps you should stop aggravating me, perhaps you should realise I am merely hollow.”
Roxas trembled a bit, he knew his brother was lost… but maybe he was beyond help… maybe he couldn’t be helped… maybe he was a shell… maybe… maybe…
He shook his head, no it wasn’t true.
He knew for a fact the brunet had been a lot better than the previous year and wondered if that was thanks to Riku. His eyes closed as he sighed, what happened to his brother? His cute and innocent baby brother?
He read over Sora’s reply and wondered if he really was trying to convince Riku or himself. While reading over the response the screen shifted with a vibration. His best friend sent his brother a new text.
“Sora, I love you… I wont take advantage of you, for once in my life I really love someone… you can say your hollow but when you kissed me, if that wasn’t love than I don’t know what love is… you felt it too didn’t you? ~Love; Riku.”
The blond looked up when he saw the brunet enter the room with a pair of pyjamas; he looked down at the electronic device and back at the brunet expecting an answer.
The brunet sat on his bed, next to the blond. “Did I get a new message?”
“Y-yeah” His brother responded.
Sora gently grabbed what was his and read the text; his emotionless face rolled his eyes and began texting back;
“I felt nothing, and I am not saying that because I believe I am hollow, I am saying that because that moment was not special nor are you, I am unaware of why I kissed you but believe me when I say you were a pawn in my game.”
At the end of his text he got up his phone away by the shelf across the room, it was clear the silver haired teen would not respond.
“You…” Roxas stood up and looked at him. “Why would you say that?”
“Because it is true, he was nothing more than a pawn to fill my teenage desires.”
The next thing Sora new his face had collided with the floor; he grabbed his cheek and stared in horror as his own brother punched him.
“Say what you want Sora…” Tears filled his eyes as sadness coated his voice, “You just want to hurt him so he would leave you alone.”
The brunet slowly got up and checked to see if his teeth were chipped, luckily the blow was not strong enough to do any damage.
“You just want everyone to leave you alone… is that what you want?!” His brother shouted, he didn’t care if Squall or his mother walked in.
“It would be preferable.” Sora said, a slight hint of fear. The brunet was once again swung at, he fell to the floor on his back and felt the blond sit on top of him, he watched as a raised fist swung at him. “R-Roxas? What are you…?”
“Shut up!” Roxas shouted, he swung harder. “Maybe you’re just a pawn! Just so I can take out my teenage desires!”
Sora put his arms up to protect his face as he was mercilessly attacked.
“You! Just! Don’t! Get it!” The blond yelled angrily at him, “You don’t get it at all!”
Sora cried out in pain, tears filled his eyes. “You’re h-hurting me!”
“And what about me?” his brother’s voice was still roaring, it didn’t matter that tears were in his eyes as well, he kept striking the brunet with quick and powerful blows that would definitley leave bruises. “The way you hurt mom? Squall? Cloud?” He sung his fist at the boy’s gut and back at his shoulder. “And what about Kairi? Tidus, Wakka, Selphie? Me?”
Sora heard footsteps hurriedly run up the stairs as he was assaulted, one attack to his head that wavered his vision and one to his jaw.
“What about Riku…?” He swung hard at the boy’s chest.
Squall burst into the room and shouted at the blond, he immediately grabbed the blond back as his mother ran to the other brunet.
“Sora, honey!” She shouted in surprise as he was bleeding.
Silence filled the room as the tension faded.
The brunet looked around the room and curled into a ball… “Just leave me-”
“Alone?” Roxas finished his sentence.
“Roxas what did you do!” Their mother shouted.
“It’s alright.” Sora whispered, he felt all eyes questioning him and he smiled, “I guess he just… knocked some sense into me…”
The brunet laughed at his own pun, his bloody lip, bruised shoulders, injured stomach… had he done the same? To his friends? To his family? To his brother?
But worst of all…
What did he do to the one he loved… the one that… he needed … the one that… he kissed… Riku… the one that he had practically made hollow…