Got accepted to Marvel yesteray, I was pretty pumped. Ryan wasn't excited, he said he be more excited if he was moving in with me. That made me think about it more but I don't think it would work out. I would really like to but thing would be tooken for granted. I think it's time to start looking for a job for regina. I'm low on the money situation ( Read more... )

Of course we all know were I was this weekend...hmmmmmm...yep Ryan's house. Had a not bad time but I got to see him and I love spending time with him. I joined a gym in estevan...my journey to a better self esteem. Ryan said that my legs have gotten skinnier but I see no change. Went to Gibby's (Bar) On thurs. got drunk not too drunk, had a great ( Read more... )

I'm overly excited today I dunno..I think it's because I'm writing. awwww, did everyone read al's (those who now her) new entry, it is so sweet. My excitedness is wearing off (that didn't take long)...I duuno what's going to happen after school maybe I won't even end up in Calgary or not even get into Marvel..I'll just be a bum. j/k ( Read more... )

Yesterday I felt unloved,I know he loves me but that's how I felt. I'm not excited about grad as I should be...I'm going to get my dress over the easter holiday's nothing better to do. got my grad pictures today..I like the picture but on one of them my fat is sticking out. (yes,I do have fat ( Read more... )

hmmmmm, not much happened today. It was long, and in a way boring. Ryan picked me up for school today I was so happy to see him but I didn't feel that the same feeling was returned. I'm frustrated over that fact ( Read more... )

"Life is difficult ( Read more... )

Ok, I just don't understand why Ryan doesn't want to spend time with me. He is getting more and more distant. Tonight we KINDA got in a small little fight. It was b/c I got mad b/c he's going to go see his friend tonight. He can't go see him tomorrow b/c his cousins will be down. Even though he said that he would call me tonight so he could see me ( Read more... )

I was making Ryan mad at me last night, not meaning to. I finished Tony Hawk 2, I still have to go back and 100% all the levels though. Ryan might get laid-off (Hurray) NOT! I know I should be happy that he might get to move home for 2 months but I'm not.I think it's not going to be the way it was before he left. Sure I'll get to spend more time ( Read more... )

I have an obsession about my weight I don't know what it is but I get upset when the scale reads what I don't want it to. I see a pretty girl and she is so skinny I feel I got to lose weight. I'm not overly obsessed with my weight or anything I'm just intimidated when I see all those pretty Models in the magazines and that feeling comes back again ( Read more... )

Me and Ryan got along this weekend what a surprise. I'm bummed out that I missed the big party this weekend. A lot seemed to happen. Ryan supported me this weekend on things I told him and he actually gave me some positive feedback, not that he's negative all the time or anything. I had fun swimming didn't think I would but I did ( Read more... )