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Guess i never told ya'll 'bout when i went out w/ Maria-her BF- and 2 of her other friends-it was fun
oh-suprising thought-
i was sitting- well here- talking to 'the boy'
and i was crying-alot-
*yes i know thats not suprising*
and Miles
kels basicly other BF
went on a walk w/ me
and we had this kinda indepth conversation
*thats the suprising part*
And- he can actuly tell when im upset-
-hardly any1 can tell-
or they just dare not ask why
-hes kinda acting like my new Kc-
not that i need a new 1 b/c i still talk to her a good bit
*i love you KC-don't worrie-i still need to talk to u also*
i wrote this long e*mail
pouring out my heart
and
i actuly got 1 back
doing the same thing
i think
*that actuly made me feel good*
i wrote a new poem
i wrote a lot actuly
most of them are good
i threw a hissy fit today
i felt like a 3year old
no1 was around
so it was ok
I wana know how you feel
I wana know if you cry
I wana know how it feels
to be where you are
I wana know if you hurt
I wana know if you'll die
I wana know how it hurts
To heart me cry
I wana know if we'll make it
I wana know if you pary
I wana know when we make it
Wil the love subside
I wana know if i can see your face
for one last time
I wana know when i'll kiss your lips
letting the pain go inside
We'll always say good-bye
The tears i'll always cry
You'll never let yourself be mine
Just waiting for us all to die
Escape the pain Bewilder the same
Try to be sain Relinquish the blame
He's your fucking stalion
Tufts and dirt, Kicks to screem
Bright as night, White to be
Limping along, Shifting to see
A runner with a pose, Not open to see
A guess, One right, Love to be
Minds amiss and hearts run wild
Only to break, To be, And blame on thee
Steps to hold, We never cared
Alone in understanding, He's to see
Lives to lives, One becomes gone
Sadness unseen, A heart poored open
a kiss for a kiss
a tear for a tear
such pain to pain
out hearts in vain
crucifyed and hearts begin
stillness in life thats bright to be
holding tight and strongness to yeald
blessid be the sole of he
a fake in stance but almost there
for eyes decive for truth to be
close to blood but far of heart
brought together now to start
distant to familare and soon repeat
never admitance but like to be
miror to miror shaterd to strong
sickend and twisted the life of thee
all the pain comes back
this is no fairytail
reading old words
feeling old pain
and reviewing one mistake after anuther
b/c on1 needs anybody
and were all better off alone
b/c it dosn't matter where you start
you'll always be pulled apart
so you decide
if all the oain
and tears
are worh it in the end
b/c we never know when it stops
and we never know how it will unfold
a kiss for a kiss
a tear for a tear
such pain to pain
our hearts live in vain
wishing it was like never before
but its all the same
theres an eather or
your making me go insain
you always change your mind
don't tell me again
i've tryed to be kind
don't let it begin
pretending were not afrade
like its all ok
im just anuther renegade
and you say its ok
maybe its all in my mind
not as bad as it seems
wishing we could just rewind
our foundation leans
every single fame
now we know how to play
seems so lame
dosn't matter what they say
don't want to talk
just wana stair at you
brains in a block
till i get over you
harder i try to fight
more you pull me under
this can't be right
my morning thunder
never blamed you for walking away
only the replacement that followed
come to stay
or i'll forever be hollowed
".....not even in the red words-and tho's are the important one's"
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