scared and lonely

[forgotten_exile]

no one is on-line and i am all alone with my thoughts. something that scares me beyond belief. because when my mind is not distracted it has time to consider things. i become more and more depressed. my choices and fuck ups catch up to me and bring me down to the bottom of a well of despair. a hole from which there is no return. death is imminent.

Comments

[twiggythe2nd]

sometimes a passive attitude is better for all. sometimes you should keep "it" all bottled up inside of you until one day the apparent bottle shatters into a million pieces because it is full. it shatters leaving a piled mass of desperation. a hope of something that can make a feeling better, but never will. i think people should understand this, once a thing happens, it can never be takin back. you can try, and a passive attitude will act as if nothing ever happened, but the feeling of despair is always going to be there in one small part of your mind. at the time something happens, your hopes are crushed forever more. forever more until the bottle breaks. it sets the feelings off on their own. letting them blow away in the wind. leaving them behind you for someone else to find. i guess im trying to say is every feeling you once had about anything, besides love, will be gone eventually. you should be optimistic about that fact, realizing that you will forget it all in moments to come. your love for someone, on the other hand, is

[twiggythe2nd]

man, now you gotta listen to me, i wrote a poem about it, hehe.

He was mortified by his thoughts
it felt like his mind had been shot
shot in a spot that led him stray
his feelings a mess, in disarray
he would hate anything thats new
he'd hide his pain from all friends view
they know it's there, at least one does
so he's here now, to turn those feelings into dust
the one in pain should always know
that he is good, should not feel low
and understand there is no need
to feel that way, and take no heed
to his thoughts, they're all insane
i think his thoughts, they all should wane
they should end, not come around
the should be lost and never found
he should leave them, they'd be forgot
this is the truth, and they are not.

so, if you dont listen to the poem, i have to punch you in the face. =)

[the_bigman]

hmmmmmmmmmmmmm....................who was this individual? We'll all kick his ass. Than finish it up with some nice cherry koolaid.