the new afi album. Oh. My. God ( Read more... )

i'm feeling so empty right now, not even able to form a congruent sentence properly. i feel so sick. today i have the terrible terrible feeling that nothing, no matter what i do or say, will ever be the same for me. i fucked up. it's such a long and boring story, one i really don't want to tell right now, but rest assured it's a struggle to not ( Read more... )

i'm so much in love. so painfully, helplessly, hopelessly in love. there's so many things that needed to be said that i didn't. lissy knows i want her here, and she says she wants to be here. i do believe her. as hard as it is for me to have faith, i do believe her. she was so wonderful this weekend, more than i ever could have dreamed of. i don't ( Read more... )

i find chaos and anarchy somewhat comforting; because, i suppose it's all i have ever really been used to. i think darkness and in retrospect, light; are chaotic in themselves and perhaps me sinking further into either of those causes a possible eruption. dignity is something that doesnt linger much around me, when i find myself crawling in ( Read more... )