*what I want*

Apr 23, 2005 10:16


So a beautiful perfect day. I wake up and the sun is shining and it's like 70 degrees out. I got sit on my computer, check the livejournals and the myspaces. Megan IMs me, and nothing is said about what happened to us, it's just like it never happened. She asks if I would like to hang out with her and the boys today. I say, "well of course!" and so I go to Megan's house and sit on the couch for a little while, waiting for it to be time to head up to Ry's. We watch stupid aimless television shows and laugh with CJ and mommy. Daddy comes in for a little while and jokes around a bit, makes us laugh a whole lot. Jessica comes in and sits with us. It's just a great family moment, and I feel totally included.
The time comes that we should head over to Ryan's. So I follow Megan in my car, and we play goose chase, and are wicked reckless. We arrive at Ryan's, and most of the boys are already there. Brian's there, Jared's there, Davies is there, Doug, Robbie, Cory, Gregiore, Ryan [obviously], Jerm, Craiggy, even Leanna! Everyone's at Ryan's. It doesn't matter what we do, as long as we're all together. After a long night of watching Craig and Ryan play video games, we decide to go to Wendy's. We all pile into Davies' van and head up there.
I call home and my mom says it would be okay for my to sleep over if I wanted. And of course I want to. So I do. I cuddle up with Brian and Meg cuddles up with Doug and we both haven't stopped laughing the entire night. Neither she or I go to sleep, Leanna stays up too, but everyone else goes to sleep. So we stay up late talking, Leanna is involved in the conversation too. We talk about old times, and the new times to come. We say how we'll never do what we did again. We'll never leave each other on impulse. We three were all meant to be one unit. And no one should ever feel left out of anything, because each of us is invited into whatever the other person is doing. We stay up the entire night just talking about everything. Everything we missed, and everything we love. Finally Ryan wakes up because we're giggling and he says, "SHUT UP WOMEN!" so we go outside to take a walk at 5AM. We walk and talk. We go to the AFM playground and go on the tire swings. It had just stopped raining, so it smells soooo good. We keep on talking and walking and there's never a moment of awkward silence.
We head back to Ryan's and the boys are just waking up, so we decide we will make them all breakfast. We three make pancakes and the boys crack the whips as a joke behind us. Every pancake comes out perfect and every pancake is made with love. Everyone enjoys their breakfasts.

[yeah that's kind of 1 and a half days.]
[I wish....]
[it's so sad that I doubt that that could ever happen. I just really miss those times. When everything was perfect, no matter what kind of fallacies there were.]
[i miss it]
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