Phil is gone. he left at 6 am. he wont be back intel thanksgiving break. i cant wait intel that time, i miss him. Andrew told me and him and Dylan thought of something. that some people are more important in the crew than others and this is very true. Phil was the most important person in the group, He was the conversations in every talk we had. ( Read more... )

i had a dream a couple days ago worth remembering... i was with my perfect girl and i couldnt have been happier. she was 5'5, short dark brownish hair which was styled nicely, she had a pale complection, skinny, perfect boobs and ass. she was just so perfect in my eyes. and we spent everyday with ach other. we did the most random think and the most ( Read more... )

me and james where just drving around in my car and just thought to ourselves that life in just he same thing over and over again. we do the same things every single day and get nowhere or do anything new. and that it is stupid for a person to find what the meaning of life is, b/c when they find it what will they do then. b/c once u know everythign ( Read more... )

i try and try to do something special, something i guess u can say romantic... yea. but the other just doesnt i guess care, i dunno. or just doesnt want to try. i dunno why i try to bring it back... i just bleh. even making plans a week before they still forget and make plans just to keep her busy, i guess im not worth being in there mind or memory ( Read more... )

well fuck. yesterday i got fucked out of 60 dollars... yea im pissed, and going to destroy someone. ahhh its soo fucked up. people in the world these days are just so pathetic and so low to there selves and would fucked over any human being in life. the world is ending soon. so i was pissed off most of the day yesterday and felt so retarded. but ( Read more... )

damn today was a weird bt interesting type of day. today was the last day of summer school but i didnt go b/c there wasnt one point in even going... so i slept and woke up in the relaxing mood of my life. my bed just felt sooo great, and when i went outside it was perfect, just so perfect. so i took a nice shower and got ready for the day. it was ( Read more... )

I guess the weather can be a imagery of how I feel inside. Like a metaphor that I have just realized in the moments driving home tonight. My skies may be gray and dreary, but there are moments with patches of light… and the world is still vivid as a day with perfection. Where nothing is wrong but I always think there is. So I guess this all means ( Read more... )

today was shitty, shitty shitty shitty. didnt go to school b/c i was sleepy as a bit so i got up around 11 and then got ready for the dentist rrrrr i hate the dentist. went there and they did there thig got out and went home. then i mowed the grass and in no time i had to go to work, yippie. not. worked from 4 to 9:30 it was chaos and sucked. bleh ( Read more... )

today was a pretty uneventful day. took a nap from 1 to 3:30 went to work and was on boards all fucking day long. phil was there so it was nice and we talked most of the time b/c it was mass slow. happy times. told me about his good time last night with some of the bros and said it was the most messed up he has ever been. i was weak. i got out of ( Read more... )