6 days to blood bath 2005 ramble

[formerfetus]

i'm still on vacation and i feel even more terrible than before. i'm not as nauseas, but definitely more exhausted and much less hungry. as in i hate eating and thinking about eating and the only things i do have an appetite for are olives and pickles and salt and vinegar potato chips. seriously. how fucking cliche and retarded.

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[victimice]

So I take it from this that you're definitely having the medical abortion instead of the surgical? If I ever had to abort again, I think I would do that, too. I thought I didn't want to do the pills because I wanted the whole thing to be over with as quickly as possible, but I cramped so much after the surgery that I suppose it wouldn't have been much worse--and better, in a way, because then I wouldn't have had to have three injections into my cervix, and that was honestly the worst part.

So, it's good that you're able to eat something, anyway. I usually found that there was a window in the afternoon where I could stuff something simple (like a baked potato with butter or a PB&J sandwich) down my throat and keep it down, so maybe pay attention to how you feel throughout the day? The more you manage to eat, the better off you'll be.

I'm sorry your support group has disappeared on you like that. Feel free to e-mail me if you need to talk to someone, kay? Loads of hugs for you!

[formerfetus]

yes so far i'm in for a medical abortion. if i'm further along than 9 weeks (which i won't be by 'date of conception' or 'first day of LMP') then i'll have to get a surgical. as far as i've heard, the medical abortion is TERRIBLE terrible terrible with cramps and nausea and overall gross period-ness... and the first day of my period is horrible enough in the first place (probably because i haven't been on birth control for a year+).

and i've heard that the surgical abortion isn't bad at all.. well obviously now i've heard differently. i would probably react the same way you did to it. abortions just suck overall. and pregnancies. blech.

last night i forced myself to inhale a big greek salad. i find if i 'get into it' and just focus on nothing else but my food i can go for a while before i feel like i'm going to ralph all over the place. but it's the 'getting into it' part that's so difficult.

:)

[victimice]

If it makes you feel better about the cramps, my mom has had both a miscarriage and an abortion, and she says she'd rather have a miscarriage any day of the week. They'll prescribe you some painkillers at the clinic, which is good, but they'll probably just give you some super-huge Ibuprofen. It will help a lot, but if you can find someone nice with a few extra Vicodin or similar just in case, you'll probably be a lot happier.

[formerfetus]

yeah i would definitely like to get my hands on some stronger painkillers. i like them anyway and because i'm sure i've developed some sort of tolerance.

i think they'll give me some tylenol 3's which has codeine in it, but still.. it's tylenol 3. i'll be sure to post about it if i fine them.

[thegetupgirl]

My brother has a way of being utterly retarded about things too. It's nice to be able to tell him somethings though, that I feel I could never tell anyone else in my family.

What happens when this is over? None of us can be friends anymore? :(

[thegetupgirl]

It would be cool if after she has the abortion we could all hang out together and get drunk. We could have a post-abortion party.

[thegetupgirl]

amazing!

[formerfetus]

i second that post abortion party!