hey remember in that last post where i said i was wearing a tampon?

that lasted for all of an hour before it filled and i bled all over myself. so it looks like tomorrow i'll be buying another big box of pads!

my self-esteem is about [here].
(that's me waving my palm very very close to the ground.)

my chest is clenched up and i feel like two bucks maybe, and that's only because i just took a shower ( Read more... )

what the fuck was that?!
the tissue that i passed today was the lining of my uterus, or something otherwise related to completing the abortion. it was more grey than red and was about the size of my thumb, which made the nurses certain that it was the ending of the abortion. mmm...

the exami don't have to get a surgical abortion! woo ( Read more... )

just a quick update before the ultrasound ( Read more... )

i freaked out on the boy today.

i cried for the first time today since before i found out i was pregnant.

i have my follow up ultrasound in ten hours.

sleepmy daily routine has been bothering me. i wake up at 2 or 3, take a pain pill, go to work at 5, try to sleep later. then i can't because of cramps in my stomach and legs (i'm a wimp when i comes to these - plus it makes me hate being female) so i take another one. then it keeps me up until 5 6 or 7am until i get so tired i just pass out and ( Read more... )

i haven't taken a pain pill for 7 hours ( Read more... )

i slept a full eight hours last night and woke up without a big mess. when i peed, i bled a lot into the toilet. i thought maybe it was all over until i started cramping terribly about thirty minutes after i got out of bed. so i took another pain pill and felt much better ( Read more... )

before we left for the grocery store, the resident inquired about whether his apartment would be haunted or not. if it does turn into a ghost, it won't be a very intimidating ghost.


( Read more... )

i cannot stop eating. i think it's because i've taken 3 painkillers so far since 6pm. i'm fucking wired right now so i'm probably going to ramble. let's at least start from the beginning!

0 hoursi made ridiculous but seemingly necessary preparations before inserting the pills, see two posts ago. i laid on a towel on the couch and then got to it ( Read more... )