i don't like my job anymore.
after henri pretty much was fired...i've lost my will.
as soon as my college apps are done, i'll worry about finding a new job.

in due time
we'll finally see
there's barely time
for us to breathe.

so fucking: unreasonable, unresponsible, out of control, irrational, unemployed, mean.

this really dumb girl who i work with needs to grow a couple fucking hundred braincells, obtain a bigger vocabulary, and fix her fucking face.
seriously.

ugh. people are dumb.

coffee
logging
transferring
montaigne
eviction
love and hate

nothing is ever the same.
i don't know.

i want to start a hippy commune and just do drugs, grow my own food, and enjoy beauty.

fuck material bullshit.

i love my apartment, teo comes over a lot.
it makes me feel less alone.

to all of my friends:
i'm sorry i never hang out with anyone anymore;
i am working 30 hours a week, taking 9 units in school, and i am constantly exhausted.
i am a bad friend.

i found the apartment i'm moving in to, it's in lawndale ( Read more... )

i've been looking for apartments.
hopefully i'll be out of my house within the next two weeks.
:]

slow fucking decline.
i can't freeze time.

it always comes to this.
i don't want it to.

i hope things get better.

i found a turtle.
school started, i'm sick, and distracted.

working at 4:15 in the morning has caused me to become entirely nocturnal.

santa cruz was a lot of fun, a much needed vacation ( Read more... )