i am sad about going back to school. is it supposed to feel this way?

she caught me at a boy's house with no parents home. what was i doing? drinking? drugs? having sex? ruining lives and reputations? no. i was cutting hair. outside.

i am torn between feeling pissed because she didnt trust me and horrible because she can't (sort of, ahh its going round and round in my head. because i dont do many bad things).

I am back after my first week of school. it was crazy busy and really good (i think) i am confused about being home and friends and my cat and especially what i want my life to look like and who do i want to be. i miss atlanta and the people and the friends and sort of north springs. my room mate is vietnamese and my room smells bad (i dont think ( Read more... )

i saw chris conrad in the chick-fil-a drive thru yesterday (i have barely seen anyone and here i am, just woken up, looking like shit, and i see someone i know. Perfect.) he said "see you on the 14th" and i told him, no he wouldnt because i am not going to north springs next year. wow. i wont be going to north springs next year. did i make the ( Read more... )

in the past 24 hours i've cried more than i have in the past 24 weeks or months.

i am home from camp. and i am pretty down about being here.

its been good lately. really. yesterday i got back from a lax camp at amherst, MASS. mary condo and i ventered out there together. i ended up pulling my groin mussel the second day and couldn't play for the rest of camp ( Read more... )

i am going to boarding school next year

YAY ( Read more... )

i drove to the beach today. for the next week just me, my cat, an riddiculous amount of reading, and sleep. the mill family is down here as well. family friends. justin (riverwood, my age) and anna (riverwood, year younger) arent too advetgersome aka will not engage in naughty activities with me ( Read more... )

i am happy. actually happy. at least i think so ( Read more... )