you're taking up my time

[fortunatef0ol]

i hate nights like tonight. they suck so so so bad.
not for any real reason. just because i can be vain and superficial sometimes.
tonight happens to be one of those nights.
i feel real sorry for myself.
and am thankful no one is around to talk to or else they'd start hating me for taking for granted everything i have.

x i feel ugly
x i feel fat
x i feel useless
x i have so many ideas and not a thing to do with them
x i wish i weren't asian just so my eyelids wouldn't be so thin (but only tonight)
x i want new hair
x i want a new personality
x i want to be fun
x i want people to like me
x i want a boyfriend
x i want a best friend
x i need a boyfriend
x i need a best friend
x i want to not like him, but i just can't help it.

xoh<3