Arrived at Milwaukee. It's a more interesting city than I gave it credit for originally. I'm excited to explore more. Went south the first time (this morning to hit up a bike shop) and it wasn't a good impression for the area. It was the hispanic part of town which was, for a while, amusing, but at one point a guy in an suv was following me down ( Read more... )

why the hell does brandon control my moods so much? my joint hurt like an old lady's and I think I've caffeine OD. limbs are getting shaky. mostly I'm annoyed at how everyone seems to think of me as incapable. I am going to bike up o mtl. ok, it's far. it's about a century, but I'm not going to burn my self out, I've done distance before, and even ( Read more... )

A person is next to me in cybertheque and I realize I have no idea when they sat down. Huh ( Read more... )

this day just got horrible. It wasn't terrible. but last night things began falling apart ( Read more... )

Stress is arriving. It was here but tolerable. no longer. Classes have ended but the work has just tripled. I'm trying to get things done but it goes slowly or it works against me. I have to get my apartment sublet, and I want it to just be DONE but I can't MAKE people have interest in it, and MAKE them need my furniture. Luckily Parrish and I aren ( Read more... )

No. not better. not changed. imploding remains the most accurate action of my innards ( Read more... )

I will never do anything but screw up. it's official. I wish I could say that I can't believe what I've done, but somehow this ending was known to me; this WOULD happen, and this horridly ironic foot would swing around and pile me up the ass. All from my own momentum ( Read more... )

I've...gotta date.
I can't wait until this can go public.
Though it's for sunday I don't want to pretend that I'm pleased.

huh.
it's done. It was hard. Inside, I felt like it was over a long time ago, but doing it was still hard.
I want to breathe again. I'm not there yet. Brandon stayed over last night and I'm glad because I wanted so badly to know that it felt right to do what I did- not for HIM per se, yet for the knowledge that feeling and passion is inside of me ( Read more... )

I feel sick ( Read more... )