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[foryoutonotice]

today was crappy. first, i had the worst headache everrrrr. then i found out that i probably wont be able to come back in october and be kera's maid of honor. then i couldnt install the dumb cd burner i went and got. so we returned it, the second one didnt work either. then my dad accused me of stealing money from him, and then lying about it. ok,

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How do you remain positive?

[stonysean]

Have you finished those TPS reports? (Insert other Office Space jokes here...) I just wanted to praise you for your strength, many people would just falter when all this drama happens before a major life event, but somehow you remain (virtually) unscathed. Stronger soul than I, I can tell you that much...

Re: How do you remain positive?

[foryoutonotice]

i could sit and quote office space for HOURS. the horrible thing sis, when i make someone watch it for the first time, and im laughing before the line is even said, and theyre like "haha" and im like "oh my god, thats like, one of the best parts ever! how could you not laugh more?!" i think it gets better each time you watch it.

im actually NOT a very strong person. i do falter. alot. then i get sick of faltering, and put up this whole "fuck it" facade - which im getting really good at. the day i actually leave will be the hardest to pretend.

Re: How do you remain positive?

[stonysean]

It does take a special kind of person to love that movie, I know I am one of them. Over and over, it's just classic each time. So, no worries.

I know that facade pretty well, spent three years mastering it when I lost some close family at 17.. But, you figure out later, its not worth it. Not just the facade, attitude, etc. Life's not worth protecting yourself against it, you live it that's all. If people are offended by you, it doesn't matter, its your life. No one can tell you how to live it, and that's the simple truth that took me so long to figure out. You are your own being, important and independant as the next person.

So do me a favor before you leave on a that jet plane to NY. Don't pretend, and dont hold anything back. Or that that final hour will replay over and over in your mind.. And sadness is something no one should endure for etenerity, ya? Thanks for your words, Della.