004 - STATE OF THE UNION.
Jack Harkness. (captaincy)
ic. WHAT OOPS I LEFT THIS BLANK uhh he may get eyerolly about it but Jack loev camp. sort of. in that it's a nice vacation but he wouldn't want to etc. I keep promising to essay on this and then not doing it, GO TEAM ME. yet am I going to fill this out properly? no. no I am not.
ooc. with almost 1000 comments/month, it surprises no-one that Jack is my primary. he's a complex man, and I enjoy delving into that complexity, plus I barely have to think about his voice (although granted I was also smart enough to set up some really quick ways to refresh it). even though Torchwood fandom suddenly bores me horribly, and will probably continue to do so until there is new canon, Jack's rapidly become one of those characters who will always have a special place in my heart, and who I can play for ages on end without tiring myself out.
issues. I want him to be friends with everyone. EVERYONE. sometimes I have major insecurity issues in terms of how he reacts to people, especially 'bad guys'; I really, really hate RPing fight scenes (I know, what!?) so he tends to jump for his gun a lot less than he probably should. although having the Doctor in Camp means he tries to tone everything down because he doesn't want the Doctor disappointed in him. also, he alternates between ridiculously flirtatious and wanting to show Ianto that he can be good, though I guess I just need to talk to & thread with Ianto more. And you know. The rest of my cast.
re-sult? you can pry Jack Harkness out of my cold, dead hands, guys. once I'm less busy I need to thread about AT with Tosh, interact more with other cast members, sort out what the hell is going on with Stein, talk to Rabi, and mayyybe that strip poker post~ eventually~
River Tam. (fourthwalled)
ic. River has mixed feelings about Camp; it's all very interesting, and it's so unique to find things which challenge her and captivate her, plus she's actually managing to (sort of) make friends who are (sort of) normal. on the other hand... there's no Simon, she doesn't have her medicine, it is very crowded in her head and she sort of sensory overloads a little. everything is split like this; Blue Sun may not be here and the Alliance isn't after her, but there are definitely evil Reaver-like psychopaths in Camp who could cause her trouble if she interferes.
ooc. I haven't played River enough because she's hard - usually I have the Stats&Perms open for whoever I'm threading with, plus that post in her journal, plus something on a person's canon if I don't know it, like a wiki page. then I usually have an assortment of maths/phsyics wiki pages open in another tab, and I am googling quotes and theorums and philosophy and pop culture constantly. oh, and Encyclopaedia Dramatica. s-so, yeah, I like to research, though most of her mental illness stuff and a lot of her knowledge I don't need to. her voice comes fairly easy for me, as do her weird jumps of logic, and a lot of the time I make comments I think are hilarious which uh, I don't think anyone else gets. 8D mostly I just love having a character who is accidentally kinda 'in tune' with Camp and therefore I can just be pleasantly meta with.
issues. I worry I'm having her speak too much given how she sort of just has quiet one-liner monologues all on her own in canon. I also haven't been brave enough to have her really break down yet because it would be so easy to fuck up if the person I was playing against didn't know how to deal or became uncomfortable. being the only one of my cast means I don't have anyone around to explain River's Riverness. it doesn't help that Camp has had people play River before. ALL OF THAT SAID, my main problem with River is that I can't play her for too long a time. I need to threadjump with her more, because I think that would stress me out MUCH less than posts.
re-sult? the amount of times I have almost dropped River is over 9000. she is very easy to be insecure about. that said, I don't think I could. she's not even my favourite Firefly character, but she's so much fun in Camp and I keep thinking of amazing things to do with her, not to mention having a list of characters I want to throw her at and essays I want to write about her.
BLACK ☆ STAR. (supersizing)
ic. HOLY, I AM ALONE BETWEEN HEAVEN AND EARTH! Black ☆ Star needs his weapon. He also still hasn't realized that the majority of his reception from people was sarcasm and facepalming. He totally plans to be the most talked-about guy in Camp, and how he plans to achieve that goal is... terrifying to consider.
ooc. guys guys I am playing a Shounen Retard. WHAT DO YOU MEAN, I SHOULD TAKE MY CHARACTERS SERIOUSLY? I'M THE GREAT BLACK ☆ STAR!!!!!111
issues. ABSOLUTELY NONE, apart from horrible horrible time issues that are a problem of me as a player.
re-sult? the ULTIMATE secondary character, I love his voice, I love his canon, I love how easy and hilarious he is. I NEED TO PLAY HIM MORE. dropping isn't even on the cards.
GREENIE. (bentley)
I'm still on a semi-hiatus. the only reason this is not a proper CFO hiatus is because of how unstable my schedule and mental health is right now - any money that the moment I post there, I'll actually be fine to play.
my internet time is balls, and I'm always very busy. as it is, right now I am barely playing any of my characters; I'll throw out Jack if I see something I absolutely MUST play him in, but I'm painfully thread-droppy. I haven't given Black Star a good start at all. however hopefully once I get a job and a routine this will settle down and I can allocate part of my day to threading instead of replying to posts and hoping I will be around enough/have the attention span to comment more than a couple of times.
fighting with friends and family and a lot of other on- and off-line problems also mean I've frequently got no motivation or self-esteem: I hate everything I do, I lose interest in RPing very quickly, I get too shy or paranoid to PM people or threadjump... etc etc. so even when I'm around for ages, often I will just read CFUD and not comment anywhere. hopefully I will snap out of this soon and get back to playing my characters. if not, I might actually end up dropping (maybe I will ... pull one from a hat?) and hope that cutting down the amount of effort I feel I "need" to put into CFUD will cut down my stress/anxiety.
oh my god don't kill me. :(