Someone tell me please

[fox2102]

Why do I still hurt.. please someone tell me why. I forgave her, God forgave me but why does it still hurt? It hurts SSSOOO bad. I am still having trouble breathing sometimes. I think this is going to put me in the hospital before it's over. Either her memory or the drinking is going to kill me. I thought this morning that everything would be

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[totchi_no_miko]

No, it's not going to end you. But no one can help you with this issue, it's completely up to you to handle. Nothing anyone says to you will solve this problem.

I'm going to tell you something anyway. Flat out to get over it. Stop drinking and stop moaning. Shit happens. People have their own minds, their own chemistry, their own fucked up ways of being romantically social. The sooner you accept that you were born alone and will die alone, that your life is barely a brief and meaningless wink in the universe, the sooner you'll accept things as they come. You have to accept things as they come. You can't let anything upset you enough to warrant multiple entries about tragedy. Life is pure chaos and anything that you feel right now is worthless in the end. It simply won't matter. If you want to be miserable then be miserable. But is it bothering Caitlin? Is it bothering the rest of the world? Will it matter five seconds from now to anyone but you? No. Matter of fact, will it even matter to you? I doubt that it will