its not that im ashamed of it
beause im not
if i was i wouldnt be writing it here
and its not just that i did something
and this is to accredit me back to being friends
because i havnt and its not
im just jealous of her
so beautiful and confident
shes what ive always wanted to be
she knows everyone i want to know
and said everything ive wished i could
i sound ( Read more... )

''i still care about you''
is just caring enough?
I have no problem at all dedicating everything I have to you..
but I don't want to do it with you in vain.

Listen, baby... I've grown out of manic relationships, I've grown out of life or death situations. I never look at anything anymore as the end of the world. Honestly, life is absurd, I can't be convinced otherwise. There is nothing so dire to me anymore that it can't wait until tomorrow, there is no sin that is unforgivable, there is no end that ( Read more... )

i feel that im being ignored...
i dont think people understand how much cell phones can do
perhaps being able to  tell when people have read text messages
what vibe do you feel comes off when somebodys read a message and hasnt responded eh?

When I was a little girl I used to host what I called "talk shows." With 50lbs strapped to my skin I could fit just perfectly on top of the old vanity that sat unused in the back room. It appealed to me I don't know why... maybe because I was so fascinated with having something to talk to. I could talk and in return have the comfort of someone ( Read more... )

This is not the time to write, I have more important things to communicate, & my head has been split open with an axe, although miraculously just to the left of the nervous system, allowing me to feel every surge of pulsating agony. I just took 2 excedrin with one gulp of water. I forgot why i stopped thinking so much, then I remembered...

Always walk on the closer side to the street when instep with a woman.
Stand when a lady enters the room.
Open doors, pull out chairs.

My life is changing.

Oh shut your little cute mouth boy.
Someday I'm going to find a way to crawl inside you.
We'll be one in the same, finally, & giggle all day long.

spirit west coast ( Read more... )

Thursday, May 25, 2006
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