I DID NOT GET DRUNK TWO WEEKS AGO AND MAKE-OUT WITH MARIA. I SWEAR IT. -holds up hands-
Meehhh..
So many things have been happening at home lately..
Truthfully, if I didn't have Tim in my life, I'd probably be cutting myself. D:
My family is SO fucked up. @_@;
When I last posted, saying that I hope my dad burns in hell, I was really pissed at him(obviously). That was when he almost killed my mom and brother. X_X; We WERE supposed to leave to New York that weekend, but as usual, mom ended up keeping us in this hellhole. Jay's right. No matter how much she says she's leaving, or how much she hates him, we're not leaving. She's been saying this for how long? Around 15 fucking years. Yes, before I was born.
Lots of other things happened, but I'm blank right now. X_X;
OH YEAH.
On Sunday, I was talking to Tim online, and all of a sudden, BOOM. Mom bursts into the room, grabs me by the hair and slams me against the wall. She was screaming about something.. @_@ I think it's how I didn't clean my room, even though I said I did. Seriously, I did clean it. I swept and everything. It's just mom and her fucking OCD are out of control. Everything has to be SPOTLESS. Nothing out of place, nothing dusty... But, she got really pissed at me and kept on punching me. And everytime I tried to block the hits, she hit me harder with a bottle or whatever. @.@
We were probably arguing for about half and hour.. =\ Then, she told me that she was ready to leave me, my brother, and my "insane" father to ourselves. So, I screamed at her, saying that of course, she was leaving. After 15 goddamn years she's leaving. Anyone guess where she's gonna go? What's the solution to all her problems? NEW YORK. Going to live with her fucking sisters solves EVERYTHING.
That's when she really snapped. =|
She told me to get the fuck out of the house, and got me a suitcase. She threw all my clothes in it and everything. She told me that she didn't care what happened to me, she just wanted me out.
Funny thing is, when I TRIED to leave, she grabbed me by the hair again, dragged me down to the floor and told me that I wasn't going anywhere.
What the hell?
Do you want me to leave or not, you fucking miserable woman?
After all that crap, I locked myself in my room, and got online. I was avoiding everyone that day. X_X; I mean, I talked with Jay a little bit, but no one else..
And when I was feeling better, I was talking with Tim in Gaia Jigsaw game/chatroom. And then, dad bursts in(X_X) and told me not to touch ANYTHING on the computer. He got on, and looked at all me and Tim wrote... And we were being stupid perverts then. So, dad got pissed, SWORE ON EVERYTHING THAT TIM WAS A PEDOPHILE( God, that really pissed me the fuck off), and now I'm grounded from every computer in the house. According to him, I'm not allowed on the internet ever again. =_=;
Of course, I snuck on today. (-is on Jay's computer-) But, it stll angers me that this happened.. I know, it's my fault, but c'mon. D: I've told my mom about Tim SO many times! And now, she's acting like she's never heard of him.. =_=; I remember clearly, that when Tim was hospitalized, and I couldn't stop crying, I told her what happened to him. I told her alot. She's such a...a...UUUGHSFDGHDFKLGHSKLGHD...
Yeah.. I'm going to continue what I was doing before I die of frustration..
Byes~ :D
[EDIT] Duuudeee... This entry is, like, WHOA. I need something to make it "happier" ._.
SDFSKFSDF I HAVE A BAG OF FRITO FLAVOR TWISTS. ;D
That better? :D?
So many things have been happening at home lately..
Truthfully, if I didn't have Tim in my life, I'd probably be cutting myself. D:
My family is SO fucked up. @_@;
When I last posted, saying that I hope my dad burns in hell, I was really pissed at him(obviously). That was when he almost killed my mom and brother. X_X; We WERE supposed to leave to New York that weekend, but as usual, mom ended up keeping us in this hellhole. Jay's right. No matter how much she says she's leaving, or how much she hates him, we're not leaving. She's been saying this for how long? Around 15 fucking years. Yes, before I was born.
Lots of other things happened, but I'm blank right now. X_X;
OH YEAH.
On Sunday, I was talking to Tim online, and all of a sudden, BOOM. Mom bursts into the room, grabs me by the hair and slams me against the wall. She was screaming about something.. @_@ I think it's how I didn't clean my room, even though I said I did. Seriously, I did clean it. I swept and everything. It's just mom and her fucking OCD are out of control. Everything has to be SPOTLESS. Nothing out of place, nothing dusty... But, she got really pissed at me and kept on punching me. And everytime I tried to block the hits, she hit me harder with a bottle or whatever. @.@
We were probably arguing for about half and hour.. =\ Then, she told me that she was ready to leave me, my brother, and my "insane" father to ourselves. So, I screamed at her, saying that of course, she was leaving. After 15 goddamn years she's leaving. Anyone guess where she's gonna go? What's the solution to all her problems? NEW YORK. Going to live with her fucking sisters solves EVERYTHING.
That's when she really snapped. =|
She told me to get the fuck out of the house, and got me a suitcase. She threw all my clothes in it and everything. She told me that she didn't care what happened to me, she just wanted me out.
Funny thing is, when I TRIED to leave, she grabbed me by the hair again, dragged me down to the floor and told me that I wasn't going anywhere.
What the hell?
Do you want me to leave or not, you fucking miserable woman?
After all that crap, I locked myself in my room, and got online. I was avoiding everyone that day. X_X; I mean, I talked with Jay a little bit, but no one else..
And when I was feeling better, I was talking with Tim in Gaia Jigsaw game/chatroom. And then, dad bursts in(X_X) and told me not to touch ANYTHING on the computer. He got on, and looked at all me and Tim wrote... And we were being stupid perverts then. So, dad got pissed, SWORE ON EVERYTHING THAT TIM WAS A PEDOPHILE( God, that really pissed me the fuck off), and now I'm grounded from every computer in the house. According to him, I'm not allowed on the internet ever again. =_=;
Of course, I snuck on today. (-is on Jay's computer-) But, it stll angers me that this happened.. I know, it's my fault, but c'mon. D: I've told my mom about Tim SO many times! And now, she's acting like she's never heard of him.. =_=; I remember clearly, that when Tim was hospitalized, and I couldn't stop crying, I told her what happened to him. I told her alot. She's such a...a...UUUGHSFDGHDFKLGHSKLGHD...
Yeah.. I'm going to continue what I was doing before I die of frustration..
Byes~ :D
[EDIT] Duuudeee... This entry is, like, WHOA. I need something to make it "happier" ._.
SDFSKFSDF I HAVE A BAG OF FRITO FLAVOR TWISTS. ;D
That better? :D?