There are three items that i carry on me at all times.
My wallet, my cellphone, and my keys.
I only have one of those now, and at least they are my keys.
I feel so lost without them.
and what is worse is i don't remember what happened.
But they are gone, but that doesn't stop the bills from coming.

no sound
just darkness
is this real, is this happening?
I open my eyes
white light
distant voices from figures so close
pain, nausea, guilt, embarrassment.
Death & Rebirth,
reborn from the womb,
To start anew,
This is what i wanted
no sound
just darkness.

Going to Berkeley, going to celebrate Mike's birthday and have fun at party! Yeeeeeesss......

Will let you know how that goes...

later.

Not much new on my end, been working a lot, but things are kinda slowing down at the center for me, im concerned, but then again im paranoid. Tuesday is our first Tech Meeting, Im nervous, ohh and paranoid. I always think im going to get fired, and even if i don't, all the other guys like to feed off that and give me crap. It's fun. But it's tiring ( Read more... )

ah, yah. I have a regular working week 9-4, kinda nice, had a scare with the insurance company today, I hate them. James, Jenny and Darby picked me up from Bart! Thank you Thank you Thank you, and nice to see yah Jenny, have fun back at Davis. My neck hurts! Whiplash man! It kills. Im gettting awefully tired and bored online, i think im going to go ( Read more... )

I got rear ended today, by some one under the influence. It happened so fast, and it wasn't my fault, not at all. I was stopped at a red light, waiting, waiting, put my head back, and WHAM. I was Thrown out into the middle of the intersection, and i have been saved again. It was luck. But I came out of it with no major injuries, and my car is ( Read more... )

Work kills, and i don't have time to do anything that i want to do, or is it that i am not utilizing the free time that i have to do those things?

Soooo..... Late ( Read more... )

sigh ( Read more... )

So i scratched what i was attempting to make some sort of epic philosophical post about how im feeling emotionally and physically numb. but whatever, LETS PARTY ( Read more... )