Like the current under the seas
Rotgut flows down my throat like water. Pain pills swim like cells in my blood. Cylon resin washes my clothes, and I am drowning in a sea of emotions.
You accused me of being passive-aggressive. You teased that my silence is a weapon turned against you. You know me better; all my weapons are set to self-destruct. You know because you, too, carry death within. It oozes from our pores like sweat.
My whole life, everything I wanted trickled between my fingers and was lost to the earth below. On Earth, in the water, Saul regained his Ellen, and I almost lost you to your floods of tears. I almost lost you to Zarek's rivers of blood. I will lose you to something that Cottle's streams of diloxin can't stop. Death by drowning takes a long time.
I sweep everything I love along with my tide -- Lee, Kara, Saul, Galactica. You.
The ocean of stars tries to breach our bulkheads. In our rack, your body crashes into mine, wave after wave engulfing us, turning us into one. Your lungs fill with fluid and soon you'll float away.
And I will be left, as I always have been, treading water.