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I'm thinking about checking out SantaCon #2 tomorrow, but I don't really want to go alone, especially as I've not joined in before.... so, we'll see.
it's cold, and after I get home from work, my energy dissipates quickly in the chill and the dark that is winter here... during the day I imagine myself going out and about, or at least hanging out at one of the coffee shops I used to frequent when home was a van, but then the daylight fades (though most days have little to no direct sunlight anyway) and with it, my motivation, which was pretty slight to begin with. I find it rather sad that such a small and unexciting thing as going to cafe can be so difficult for me. so... I'm thinking drugs or maybe one of those full+ spectrum lamps... but if I can get sliding scale pysch help, it might be cheaper than buying one of those lights. then I find myself thinking perhaps we should have moved south instead of settling, but I chose some stability for a while over the unknown... come spring, I get to choose again, and it will be easier for me to decide with more sunlight and warmth...
p.s. a bit of passionate anger: omg do i fucking hate spending ALL of the daylight hours at work and always coming home after dark. ugh. thank you. *curtsy*
it's cold, and after I get home from work, my energy dissipates quickly in the chill and the dark that is winter here... during the day I imagine myself going out and about, or at least hanging out at one of the coffee shops I used to frequent when home was a van, but then the daylight fades (though most days have little to no direct sunlight anyway) and with it, my motivation, which was pretty slight to begin with. I find it rather sad that such a small and unexciting thing as going to cafe can be so difficult for me. so... I'm thinking drugs or maybe one of those full+ spectrum lamps... but if I can get sliding scale pysch help, it might be cheaper than buying one of those lights. then I find myself thinking perhaps we should have moved south instead of settling, but I chose some stability for a while over the unknown... come spring, I get to choose again, and it will be easier for me to decide with more sunlight and warmth...
p.s. a bit of passionate anger: omg do i fucking hate spending ALL of the daylight hours at work and always coming home after dark. ugh. thank you. *curtsy*