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frankiebones

Yeah.

Mar 02, 2006 22:27

It's been years since my last post. In that period of time I've done drugs, drank a lot, STOPPED doing drugs, got another tattoo, started volunteering at the animal shelter, started going to school, had a wonderful girlfriend, spent countless hours worrying that I wasn't good enough for her and that no matter what I did.. it was always too much.. ( Read more... )

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jnut March 4 2006, 01:35:16 UTC

cj, depression or other issues in your life are nothing to be upset about. Everyone has skeletons in their closets, things they wish had never happened, things they had never done. Plenty of people have had broken hearts, and the best thing I can tell you, in all honesty, is that tomorrow is another day. Every second you breathe is another chance to turn it all around. You don't need to rely on the military or what you feel as others wanting of you to decide how you're going to act. Be yourself. Depressed? Go see a shrink, get some Paxil or Zoloft or something. Hit the gym hard. Be someone you'd be proud of. Your destiny is controlled by one person. You. Not that I want to compare you to a black woman (although you have a suprising resemblance ;) ) Look at the story of oprah. She was a crack smoking prostitute in Detroit I believe. She is now the richest woman in the United States, and loved by millions. Crack Whore----> Billionare Media Queen. CJ, you of anyone should know that you have the ability to pull yourself up by your ( ... )

anonymous March 4 2006, 02:03:08 UTC

wow, not much left to say after jared. But seriously man, we have talked for hours about this, and if we need to talk for hours more, let me know, the doors always open, but as jared said, you HAVE to see past the bullshit that is clouding your vision, there is a silver lining to every cloud, and once you let go of the past and focus on the future, you will see what i mean. As far as the confidence/personality thing, we would not be good friends if you didnt have both, plain and simple, look at all of our close friends, they all have the same traits, for the most part, and that is what makes us so close. as far as the girlfriend thing ( ... )

anonymous March 4 2006, 02:39:24 UTC

Ummmmm Yah Im glad you are on your way to my house right now because you and I need to talk about alot of shit! This is Webber by the way. Yah dude J is definitely right on what he said. It kills me to see you put yourself down or talk yourself down dude.. We all have been there at one point in our lives man O im not good enough for this is or that or she is waaay out of my league, or dude I cant talk to her wtf would I say to her. I know you feel a Fuck load better saying all that shit and getting it out in the open. I learned alot about who you are that I had NO clue of. ANd I know you are thinking that people are gonna think of you different now but im going to be honest dude. They Are. heres what I reccommend how you react to all of it. People who give you shit about it or stop talking to you. Fuck them. Eat shit. Peace to them, you dont need people like that in your life. why? because those are the people that will 'put you down' in one way or another. why? because they are fucked up people in the first place. Dude Im sorry you ( ... )

anonymous March 4 2006, 02:40:01 UTC

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deepppp man anonymous March 4 2006, 09:00:57 UTC

I think you should write a memoir...i would read it
-Sarah rah rah

imonfiya4ya March 4 2006, 20:07:34 UTC

hey cj,
i know we dont talk so much anymore but i wanna let you know that i read whatcha said and honestly i cried thru almost the whole thing. it was so raw and real and its things i definatly didnt know about you. back in the day you were one of my close friends... but time, distance, and whatever else drifted us away. but even though we drifted i still hold a place in my heart for you and always have. thanks for writing this, i hope things work out, cant really say much else after your boys wrote responses like that :o)

take care, cj

Em

titas4u March 4 2006, 22:58:55 UTC

you have got some awesome friends that want to let you know that they care even if you don't want them to. i haven't talked to you in a really long time but i can actually relate to the loss of a childhood. It changes the rest of your life whether you like it or not. It has made you who you are today. Find the good part in every day. Even if it is just being able to get out of bed in the morning and doing one thing for yourself.

I hope that you even remember me or i feel like a jackass right now....

~Aileen

titas4u March 21 2006, 23:16:58 UTC

Chin up, sweetheart. :)

Holly