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[franticpstar]

Sometimes I wonder: Do I make too big a deal out of this? I know, I know I talk about being a CODA constantly. But is it really that big a deal? I mean, sure, yeah my parents are deaf.. and consequently, I had a pretty different upbringing.. I'm bilingual, an entirely different worldview than most.. but does that make THAT much of a difference

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[seraphicmirth2]

>>When i think about it, it makes me sad. I don't want to be just a person. Just another hearing person, a normal little white girl. And I'm not trying to glob onto a minority here, just needing attention and trying to jump on the deaf bandwagon or something. I just.. feel like I belong there. I've always belonged there.<<

Totally totally feel you on that.

>>Too much explaining, too much defending. I feel like I'm always prepared, always on guard when my two worlds are colliding. I become this filter, I catch all the crap that people say, and try and make it pretty for the other side. I stop the sounds in my throat and tie my hands behind my back, I'm never completely comfortable. <<

yes yes yes yes yes

>>What is a CODA? Its beyond all these words... It's not just these good times, the times i have now, now that I have other codas to relate to, now that I can talk about stuff. Being a CODA is understanding, without saying, how much of the bad I went through. ... )

[franticpstar]

I'm glad you got it.

You were right on the nose, and that's the thing.. you can just understand me.

Don't worry about fitting in when you leave, yes, there will be those deafos who can't appreciate a little coda at deaf club, but once you get a chance to sit and chat with some codas... the world will open up for you.

I tell people all the time that my parents are deaf. I'm sure that they don't know what to think, but it has to be said... its who i am.