Why do i love him

[freak_ashes_ash]

Somethings rong :(, how can i stop this maddness in my heart? i truely deeply love someone, but he found our entire relationship.... an obsession. Obsession? wow i never hurd that befor, how is what we had an obsession? it felt so real, even though i know him and i will never be again, i cant stop loving him, and it hurts so bad that he thinks

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girl..

[hellzangel_lzer]

ive been through that before.i felt like dying because i though no one loved me, thought that i was always being used, never wanted or loved. I was useless, meaningless, lifeless. Then one day i met Jessee. The love of my life. I waited. I was tired of everyone treating me like shit, and i was single for a while. A year. I waited for someone to sweep me off my feet. And that guy was Jessee. If you wait long enough, you'll find your one and only. I believe that everyone has a one and only, and you will find him. I felt like i never wanted to talk to a guy ever again. Never wanted to have a relationship again...i wanted to die, i was tired of being hurt, and wanted to leave this world. I attempted suicide. I tried it, more thna once...as you can see it didnt work. but it taught me a lesson. If it didnt work, then maybe im supposed to be here to find my one and only. And i have, and i beleive that you will too Ashley. You just have to beleive that he is out there, and you will find him someday. Im sorry for what you are going through.

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[freak_ashes_ash]

yeah, u and jesse r adorable together. ur comment helps me realize that friends rule and r always there when u need them, even tho we dont really talk much in school :P. Its just sometimes i feel like iv lost mr. perfect, and it saddens me to see him all the time and not be able to run up and hug him like b4 and run up and kiss him like before and.... i was really emo the other night. im good now i guess, i cooled down after i posted that journal and i thought to myself and i dont need him, he dumped me for his dream girl who dint want him lmao, now hes down and alone and iv got wonderful friends to hang with and make me happy :P. even tho i found someone while hangin out with some awsome friends, and hes super nice. well c ya in school

[__neverletg07]

Hey ashley..It's Torie..
add mee =]

[freak_ashes_ash]

HOLA, hehe hows r u? im good, chillin @ my house doing absolutely notta, im bored outta my mind hehe, c ya in school

[anonymous]

All u do is bitch. Bitch about how you never find love, your like what 16?! what the fuck most people don't find love until their 20! Thats pathetic you cant even be happy without a relationship. stop whining and just try to live for once. if all you do is THING about trying to find some one true blah blah then it will NEVER happen. just live and let things come.

[freak_ashes_ash]

HAHA mr. "Anonymous" if u dont like the way i am then dont read my fucking journals asshole. Gosh wut r u afraid to leave ur real name cuz oh maybe i just might no who u r and u think ill be pissed its YOU and then flip out well then u dont know me so well mr. "anonymous" GESH. and not even my closest friends know whats really going on in my life so i dont expect u to understand my journal enteries anyways.... being "ANONYMOUS" AHAHAH ur so stupid. and as i pointed out IF U DO NOT LIKE THE WAY I WRITE IN MY JOURNAL ENTERIES THEN STOP FUCKING READING THEM DUMBASS GOSH!

[silenthero13]

Whenever I talk to you Ashley you seem ever so wonderful, if you have a promblem i am here, just because i have a girlfriend doesnt not mean i can not continue to be yours, if your messege me to talk about something then i will talk!lol, i am sorry i usually dont start conversations, also to Anonymous: I am sure in your life you have wondered if you will ever find mr/ms right, do you dare sit there and type everything in ur life is perfect? Who are you to say when people find love and how as to that? Are you so retarded that you think everything is great in this life? i find it funny as Ashley does that you are posting about how she is "bitching" and yet you do not reveal your identity, if you DO believe these so called patterns and truths tell us who you are and lets see how perfect your life is!? but on a lighter note to you Ashes:i can not tell you who is perfect in your life and who is not, this is a decision to you, i have told you what i belive to be love in a relationship before..you say that you are alright now, but if you

[freak_ashes_ash]

I know ur there when i need someone to talk to, and ur a really great friend. im really trying to make life peachy, and not so depressing but its really hard for me. I might seem happy, but im not happy. its just i get so depressed that i go into some sort of shock and it makes me some crazy psyco wild person or some lazy, tired, bitchy person. and mr. Anonymous, lol whomever he/she might be... i really think i know who it is, but w/e he can go run his mouth all he wants, hes just saying shit not really hurting me any, its just annoying. ill talk to u later some about stuff if thats kewl. ttyl'z