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freakbythebay

The thing about me is

Jun 26, 2010 23:57

( long, rambly and lacking in sense. Also depressing. )

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fragile_faith June 28 2010, 15:39:26 UTC

(((hugs)))
I'm sorry you're feeling this way, and just know that I'm here if you need anything.

freakbythebay July 9 2010, 08:05:46 UTC

*hugs back*

Thanks, also we need to hang out more.

the_raddy June 28 2010, 20:29:49 UTC

Aww sweetie, I'm sorry you're going through a rough time. I don't think you're a bad or weak person at all...you're one of the sweetest people I've ever met, and it makes me sad that you're being so hard on yourself. If it makes you feel any better, you're not alone in being scared about the future...pretty much everyone I know is going through the exact same thing, including myself. We're all at that awkward "oh shit I'm done with college, NOW what do I do??" stage, and I don't know a single person who has their bearings yet, emotionally or financially. We're all in this mess together, flailing our arms around and trying to be adults ( ... )

freakbythebay July 9 2010, 08:11:22 UTC

I love you.

Yes, I'm still in Santa Cruz. Do you think people would come down for a day at the boardwalk? Maybe a summer frolic day? The problem is that I rarely have weekends off unless I ask for them ahead of time, I am usually free in the middle of the week when most people are working. Are you free during the week at all?

YES! to the suggestion of just picking a day. If you pick a day far enough in advance (a couple weeks) I can ask for it off. I'm in Hawaii from July22-30, but other than that I'm around.

I'll try to be around more, I guess it's just easier to lurk.

the_raddy July 10 2010, 01:44:20 UTC

Awesome, I'm free during the week too! It's a mixed blessing, really...I only work part-time because my boss cut everyone's hours and I can't find another job, so I have a lot of free time for friends, but my paychecks are so puny. *sigh* Are you free Tuesday or Thursday this coming week?

freakbythebay July 10 2010, 16:55:13 UTC

I'm free Tuesday AND Thursday of this coming week. Tuesday might be the better day to hang out, but let me know which is best for you. Also, you want to hang in sc or I can try to get up there?

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ocean_flames July 1 2010, 06:49:39 UTC

But mostly, I am not okay. Maybe if I write these things down and send them of into cyberspace, the pressure of dealing/ not dealing with them will ease up and I can finally breathe. I'm tired of feeling worthless. Tired of using this journal as a place to bitch instead of a place to really write. When did all my creativity go away?

Um... you took the words right out of my mouth, er, fingers. I am in the exact same place.

I love you. You deserve everything good in the world. You are beautiful and intelligent and creative. I want you to know this always.

I know I'm not around as often as I want to be - mostly because I'm dealing with my own personal cyclone-hell of "what the f*ck am I doing with my life?". But I love you so very much.

And if there's someone who needs their ass kicked, please let me know. If I can't complete the ass-kicking myself, I live with a very large man who would be more than happy to back me up on your behalf.

freakbythebay July 9 2010, 08:14:31 UTC

I love you too, and I miss you so much. But we both have shit that we're doing, and RL gets in the way. The important thing is that we still try, and we do, to get together when we can. Once my car works better I'll try to get up to SF to visit you more often. <3