10th Grade
As I sat there in English class, I stared at the
girl next to me. she was my so called "best friend". I stared at her
long, black hair, and wished she was mine. But she didn't notice me
like that, and I knew it. After class, she walked up to me and asked me
for the notes she had missed the day before and i handed them to her.
she said "thanks" and gave me a kiss on the cheek. I wanted to tell
her, I want her to know that I don't want to be just friends, I love
her but I'm just too shy, and I don't know why.
11th grade
The
phone rang. On the other end, it was her. she was in tears, mumbling on
and on about how her love had broken her heart. she asked me to come
over because she didn't want to be alone, so I did. As I sat next to
her on the sofa, I stared at her soft eyes, wishing she was mine. After
2 hours, one Drew Barrymore movie, and three bags of chips, she decided
to go to sleep. she looked at me, said "thanks" and gave me a kiss on
the cheek. I wanted to tell her, I want her to know that I don't want
to be just friends, I love her but I'm just too shy, and I don't know
why.
Senior year
The day before prom she walked to my
locker. "My date is sick" she said; he's not going to go well, I didn't
have a date, and in 7th grade, we made a promise that if neither of us
had dates, we would go together just as "best friends". So we did.
Prom night
After
everything was over, I was standing at her front door step! I stared at
her as she smiled at me and stared at me with her crystal eyes. I want
her to be mine, but she doesn't think of me like that, and I know it.
Then she said "I had the best time, thanks!" and gave me a kiss on the
cheek. I want to tell her, I want her to know that I don't want to be
just friends, I love her but I'm just too shy, and I don't know why.
Graduation Day
A day passed, then a week, then a month. Before I could blink, it was
graduation
day. I watched as her perfect body floated like an angel up on stage to
get her diploma. I wanted her to be mine, but she didn't notice me like
that, and I knew it. Before everyone went home, she came to me in her
gown and hat, and cried as I hugged her. Then she lifted her head from
my shoulder and said, "you're my best friend, thanks" and gave me a
kiss on the cheek. I want to tell her, I want her to know that I don't
want to be just friends, I love her but I'm just too shy, and I don't
know why.
A Few Years Later
Now I sit in the pews of
the church. That girl is getting married now. I watched her say "I do"
and drive off to her new life, married to another guy. I wanted her to
be mine, but she didn`t see me like that, and I knew it. But before she
drove away, she came to me and said "you came!". she said "thanks" and
kissed me on the cheek. I want to tell her, I want her to know that I
don't want to be just friends, I love her but I'm just too shy, and I
don't know why.
Funeral
Years passed, I looked down at
the coffin of a girl who used to be my "best friend". At the service,
they read a diary entry she had wrote in her high school years. This is
what it read:
I stare at him wishing he was mine, but he doesn't
notice me like that, and I know it. I want to tell him, I want him to
know that I don't want to be just friends, I love him but I'm just too
shy, and I don't know why. I wish he would tell me he loved me!
"I wish I did too..." I thought to my self, and I cried.