what you said about her is spot on. she was, by far, one of the most amazing people i ever had the pleasure to have in my life. words can't explain how much i do and will miss her.
i still keep waiting for her to call or msg me, and i can't grasp the idea that that's never going to happen.
Memories of her have been flooding back to me today... it's a bit overwhelming. Coachella, her dinner parties, hitting the local indie spots around town, talking gossipy smack on the phone...
We hadn't been in contact in months when she IMed me late last week telling me she was moving to a new LJ. She said that she was still hampered by the pain but was still in good spirits. She jokingly told me that the wedding was far enough in the future when I had no way of making any excuse not to attend.
All the cliches about the death of someone close bringing things into perspective are all too appropriate. I don't think she ever really knew how grateful I felt to know her and be her friend. Makes me sad.
All the cliches about the death of someone close bringing things into perspective are all too appropriate. I don't think she ever really knew how grateful I felt to know her and be her friend. Makes me sad.exactly. we would go for short spans of time (up to a month) where we wouldn't talk on the phone. i never thought much of it because i always knew that was just her thing, as she didn't like to talk to people when she wasn't feeling well (and just bitch about how awful she felt). we'd msg randomly online, though, so it wasn't like i hadn't *talked* to her. but those last few conversations were really insignificant in hindsight, as it was just random comments about her upcoming trial and some things about g's house. she'd called me the other week, but i missed the call. and i had yet to call her back. it kills me that i missed this opportunity to hear her voice one last time. so all i have left are these faint clips of her speaking in my head... her saying things like "omg!" and "ugh!", various chinese speak things and, of course,
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Angie and I were seemingly perpetually single. One of the things we would bond over was complaining about our romantic lives and how hard it was to find someone that really clicked. I can tell you with great assurance that she found that with you. You brought so much joy to her life... I had never seen her so content and so at peace until she met you.
I almost feel guilty feeling this degree of emotion over her death considering I have absolutely, positively no idea what you are going through right now. Suffice to say that you are in my thoughts and I wish you the absolute best in these trying times.
"Everything is okay in the end; if it is not okay, it is not the end."
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*hugs*
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i still keep waiting for her to call or msg me, and i can't grasp the idea that that's never going to happen.
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We hadn't been in contact in months when she IMed me late last week telling me she was moving to a new LJ. She said that she was still hampered by the pain but was still in good spirits. She jokingly told me that the wedding was far enough in the future when I had no way of making any excuse not to attend.
All the cliches about the death of someone close bringing things into perspective are all too appropriate. I don't think she ever really knew how grateful I felt to know her and be her friend. Makes me sad.
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*sigh*
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Abrupt departures sting deeply.
Fondly,
Vanessa
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I almost feel guilty feeling this degree of emotion over her death considering I have absolutely, positively no idea what you are going through right now. Suffice to say that you are in my thoughts and I wish you the absolute best in these trying times.
"Everything is okay in the end; if it is not okay, it is not the end."
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