I think I may be losing my mind, but I can't think clearly enough to decide what I can blame it on.

I am tempted to say it is because I lost some control that I wasn't expecting to lose. Oh so cryptic. Blah.

I am so tired of randomly going crazy and consequently making an ass out of myself. FUCK!

That is all.

How did I get here ( Read more... )

It has been a while. Not a lot has happened. I remain, as ever, full of hatred for the stupid folk and constantly surround by the stupid folk ( Read more... )

So ( Read more... )

And it came to me then that every plan ( Read more... )

Am I ever gonna stop missing the way it was? Every time something changes I find myself looking back. When will I stop looking back? And I am looking back in search of a future. In search of something that I have always been missing. In search of a substitute for the feelings that I want now ( Read more... )

In less than a year, both of my grandmothers died. My mom's mom just died on Saturday. The memorial service was today.

HAHA! Remember when I used to be good at this? That was such a fluke. I can't "journal" to save my life, because I always want to write about some big theme rather than potentially important small events that just may change my life had I the foresight to see it ( Read more... )

I think I have forgotten how to write entries about anything. It is like calling people. I can't make myself call people unless I have at least one thing to say. And, alas, here I am with nothing. Nothing to say except that I have nothing to say ( Read more... )

Yesterday my sister ran in the NM Marathon. 26 miles in just about 6 hours. She ran the first 15 miles before she stopped to walk at all. I am so in awe.