in the lies I've weaved

[freakyloner]

I walk about my life, knowing how much everything around me is real. It's there. It's a stage for me to play my part. I'm so tired of this role I have. It's so fucking hard to be play the part for everyone's world to keep spinning. I mean, everyone in this world does their part and that's why shit works. If everyone all decided at the same time to

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[scarredemu]

I know I'm probably the worst person ever to give you advice, and I'm fully aware that I barely even know the situation you're going through. We don't really talk enough for me to know anything, just... me just guessing at what you're attempting to say on here

[freakyloner]

I re-read this entry and kinda just go... what the fuck...

Reading these entries is probably the worst thing to ever do. I'm so utterly caught up in my head sometimes that I just need to say whatever that seems to pop up. I'm sure there's some reality to what I type but it's a rather big mess. It's a cycle that somehow just helps me relieve my mentality. It's worked since I was younger so I just kept with a journal. I ran out of pages...
I'm not sure why you still read this... It's a lot of nonsense really that I just have to get out of my head.

I feel really bad that I still haven't really talked to you... but... I am glad that you offer to listen. I wish I could bring myself to do that. And please, don't hesitate to respond to my nonsense. I mean, I don't think there's much to respond to than just... "What the hell..." but it's always interesting to come back to these in years and read about how things have changed.

[scarredemu]

It's the nonsense that we type in moments of insanity that I always find most interesting. I'm not about to say that everything that happens is for a reason, but... I do believe that all of our thoughts occur for a reason. It's those momentary, fleeting thoughts that drive us insane, that usually are more sincere and genuine than anything we say out loud.
I enjoy nonsensical ramblings more than nearly anything else. It's actually part of why I enjoy talking to Robert so often. He just has these moments where he rambles on, and... everything is so honest. I think it's lovely.
I enjoy attempting to make my own sense out of things that don't. So, you don't need to feel bad that you haven't really talked to me a lot. It's not like I've really talked to you much either. So, we're quite even in that respect.